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RealLostSoul

RealLostSoul

once rock bottom, always rock bottom
Oct 11, 2019
212
Growing up with depression there is no way I can make it out alive. My momma always told me it will be better when I graduated from school and go to university but in fact it just got worse. More and more weight on my shoulders, responsibilities, loneliness and a miserable life where there is no end in sight. It feels like a prison and I have like 60 to life ahead of me. I can't think clear straight. Some years more and I'll get the phd, then a 9-5 job, a house and a family with someone I don't even care for or have any feelings for. I suffer through life, every second is soaked in pain until I am 6 below. What a bullshit. The unfair thing though, I put much effort into things to get better but they simply didn't. Therapy and meds are scam for me. No therapy for my destiny. It's just how things are.
 
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SadSnorlax

SadSnorlax

Member
Oct 13, 2019
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I can relate with these feelings. Thought things would get better after high school but they just got more stressful and worse.
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
I think u should start watching, reading, listening to Aaron Clarey. Might help u get a better perspective and maybe help u find a direction u can live with. It is messed up times in society and it's no surprise u feel this way. If you live in the US it might help u have clearer understanding about what's going on in our society. He especially focuses on helping men because we live in this feminist society now that is harmful to males especially.
 
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