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Unicr0n

Unicr0n

Stuck in a black hole...
Mar 26, 2024
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>volunteer at a place for five years.
>put in more hours than any other volunteer, including on holidays that no one wants to work
>staff seems to like me
>given awards for my efforts
>apply for a paid position of what i'm volunteering now [it pays more than my current job]
>rejected application

I couldn't bother to feel any sadness. i know once I stop feeling any sadness at the thought of me dying is the time for me to go. I feel like the end is coming closer and closer
I feel like I'm being taken advantage of. That they denied the application because they know they can just get more free work out of me so that they don't have to go on calls on the weekend. My going on the call for them means they don't have to stay in town on the weekends or holidays. I would always cover Thanksgiving and Christmas weekends (from Dec 22nd to Jan 2).

I want to be useful but I hate feeling so used like this
 
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