I hate that I'm too scared to do it. I've sort of tried partial a few times.. but not really. My motivation is primarily from suffering I guess which makes it harder to do it for me because if life were different I probably wouldn't even try. But that's not the life I have been given and it's been years now and life just has gotten continuously worse. All I can think of how much better it would be if I could just gain courage though. I'm also afraid of it failing and me ending up even more messed up than I was to begin with. I really wish there was an easier way to do all of this. It would be nice if we could just will ourselves to death painlessly within minutes or something.
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ImpairedLowlife
Empty and hollow
- Aug 3, 2020
- 367
Deafsn0w
I will buy you a dog if you like my posts
- Sep 4, 2018
- 2,488
It sucks that everyone has this thing called "survival Instinct." I tried to hang myself, but stopped myself from doing it because it was painful and SI. I wish euthanasia was available for everyone who suffer from terminal illnesses and mental illnesses. Unfortunately, people care about animals more than humans.
Wayfaerer
JFMSUF
- Aug 21, 2019
- 1,938
I think trying to CTB without chemical assistance (e.g. alcohol or benzo's) is pretty much impossible. I don't think I'd be able to do it stone cold sober and even with something to sooth the nerves I still don't know if I will have it in me. Before I became suicidal, I didn't realize how hard it was. Suicide is not for cowards!
