I am gay male, and I I don't like it. I wish I was straight I don't know if this is my depression making me feel this way or is it just me. I know being straight won't make any difference to how I feel , cause until depression gets better I cannot feel better.
princexhhn
I didn’t know I was lonely til I saw your face.
- Sep 26, 2023
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Cloud Busting
Formerly pinkribbonscars
- Sep 9, 2023
- 527
I'm never gonna understand how being gay is wrong- especially when animals in the wild have homo sex all the time- unless you believe that humans are inherently designed to be birthing and mating machines.
Were you raised in a homophobic culture or household? When did your depression start?
Unfortunately it's far easier for the cis and straights. Be your fabulous self and rebel against us. I'm straight and I'll cheer you on, bigots be damned.
Were you raised in a homophobic culture or household? When did your depression start?
Unfortunately it's far easier for the cis and straights. Be your fabulous self and rebel against us. I'm straight and I'll cheer you on, bigots be damned.
R. A.
If I must die, do not let them say I did not live.
- Aug 8, 2022
- 1,422
This.
Sounds like you were corrupted by evil abrahamic religion, just like many places around the world.
queer shit has been known and normal for thousands of year.
Timeline of LGBTQ history - Wikipedia
Lady_V
Please be honest.
- Aug 31, 2025
- 25
Being a rapist and/or pedophile is wrong. Not loving someone or doing consensual sexual acts that feel good.
Hey, I really appreciate your honesty. That kind of vulnerability takes strength.
I'm also a gay man, and I want to share something with you: I used to feel the same way. For a long time, I thought being gay was wrong. I felt uncomfortable in my own skin, like I was living someone else's life. And yeah, depression made all of that feel heavier—like I was trapped in a fog I couldn't explain.
But over time, things shifted. I started to accept myself—not overnight, and not without setbacks—but gradually, I realized that being gay wasn't the problem. It wasn't something to fix. It was part of me, and it didn't make me any less worthy of love, joy, or belonging.
Now, I'm in a relationship with someone who truly sees me, and I'm happy. Not perfect, not immune to hard days—but genuinely happy. And I say that not to brag, but to let you know that peace is possible. That self-acceptance isn't just a cliché—it's a doorway.
You already said something powerful: "being straight won't make any difference to how I feel." That tells me you know this is about depression, not identity. And that's a huge insight. Depression lies. It twists things. But your truth—who you are—is still there, waiting to be honored.
You're not broken. You're not alone. And you deserve to feel at home in your own life.
I'm also a gay man, and I want to share something with you: I used to feel the same way. For a long time, I thought being gay was wrong. I felt uncomfortable in my own skin, like I was living someone else's life. And yeah, depression made all of that feel heavier—like I was trapped in a fog I couldn't explain.
But over time, things shifted. I started to accept myself—not overnight, and not without setbacks—but gradually, I realized that being gay wasn't the problem. It wasn't something to fix. It was part of me, and it didn't make me any less worthy of love, joy, or belonging.
Now, I'm in a relationship with someone who truly sees me, and I'm happy. Not perfect, not immune to hard days—but genuinely happy. And I say that not to brag, but to let you know that peace is possible. That self-acceptance isn't just a cliché—it's a doorway.
You already said something powerful: "being straight won't make any difference to how I feel." That tells me you know this is about depression, not identity. And that's a huge insight. Depression lies. It twists things. But your truth—who you are—is still there, waiting to be honored.
You're not broken. You're not alone. And you deserve to feel at home in your own life.
Just remember that being gay is your kind of attraction, going against it and dating women is only going to hurt you and the women around you. Never do this, especially when you know your sexual orientation.
You've already got a lot of advice but I wanted to mention this as not many people realise, when you force yourself to have a relationship when you lack the attraction towards that person you are dehumanizing both yourself and the person you're having the relationship with. You can't change your attraction or lack of and the people around you can suck a metaphorical cock if they don't like it; don't go into their mold, you don't fit. You carve your own shape to fit in , not everyone goes into the same cookie cutter one.
You've already got a lot of advice but I wanted to mention this as not many people realise, when you force yourself to have a relationship when you lack the attraction towards that person you are dehumanizing both yourself and the person you're having the relationship with. You can't change your attraction or lack of and the people around you can suck a metaphorical cock if they don't like it; don't go into their mold, you don't fit. You carve your own shape to fit in , not everyone goes into the same cookie cutter one.
As in, you feel it's morally wrong or that it feels physically wrong? I think in other threads, you've mentioned you would ideally like to experience sex with a man but, as a woman?
I agree with other members though. Sexuality is so nuanced. I think our upbringings can really taint our feeling towards sex and relationships. I had a very prudish upbringing so, initially I was very much warned off sex. Saw it as something sinful and disgusting even.
Later on, as puberty hit, I was so ugly and had such bad body image that it was probably inevitable it was never going to happen!
I'm glad my upbringing didn't extend into my fantasy life though. At least I've had that. Lol.
I had a gay friend once who also seemed to struggle. Not so much with the gender preference but, he was torn between sleeping around and, settling down with one person. Whichever he picked, he always felt like he was missing out. I think, eventually that did pass for him- thankfully. He seems more content now.
I think perhaps that is an issue for gay guys. Maybe all young guys- straight ones too. That there is almost this expectation they should be promiscuous and, if they're not, they're missing out.
I agree with other members though. Sexuality is so nuanced. I think our upbringings can really taint our feeling towards sex and relationships. I had a very prudish upbringing so, initially I was very much warned off sex. Saw it as something sinful and disgusting even.
Later on, as puberty hit, I was so ugly and had such bad body image that it was probably inevitable it was never going to happen!
I'm glad my upbringing didn't extend into my fantasy life though. At least I've had that. Lol.
I had a gay friend once who also seemed to struggle. Not so much with the gender preference but, he was torn between sleeping around and, settling down with one person. Whichever he picked, he always felt like he was missing out. I think, eventually that did pass for him- thankfully. He seems more content now.
I think perhaps that is an issue for gay guys. Maybe all young guys- straight ones too. That there is almost this expectation they should be promiscuous and, if they're not, they're missing out.
Yup. This is the only answer you need to hear. INTERNALIZED HOMOPHOBIA. The culture of most places have made it so that people who are gay are, through direct and indirect messaging, made to feel like them being gay is a 'sin' or just 'not correct'. The heteronomativity of most cultures has made it a norm to ONLY be heterosexual and to only seek heterosexual types of relationships and this is the just the way things have been for millenia. If you look carefully through history you will actually find QUITE A LOT of people who were closeted gay but gave hints here and there to their true sexuality. They were humans just like you and I, and they were dealing with that there same homophobia that you are here currently dealing with.
But think carefully about this concept of 'being gay being wrong' . If youre gay that simply means that you like people lf the same gendrr.... and....thats it. How does being gay make you a danger to humanity? It doesnt! Meanwhile we have people like kamala harris, suharto, queen victoria, francisco franco, benjamim mileikowsky, etc... who clearly ARE a danger to humanity and people have been singing their praises. Aye if anything, I feel the average gay person oughta feel more worthy of being honoured than any of those jerks I just mentioned seeing as how they dont call for the senseless slaughter of other people...
I for one experienced a lot of INTERNALIZED RACISM, myself. I ...uhh.... somehow believed that my Black skin somehow made me not worthy of life , love and liberty. Somehow. DOnt ask how. But I did. kanye west, prince ibn, thomas sowell and candace owens are prime examples that internalized self-hate can exist and be dangerously intense. This internalized self-hate is clearly from millenia of people of the Global SOuth being subjected to colonialism and depictions of them as 'inferior' .Sadly this cultural depiction of people from the Global SOuth stuck for a disturbingly high amount of people from the Global South.
Internalized self hate doesnt only exist for sexuality or skin color. Ask some wahhabists what they think of hatred towards other Muslims who are just like them and watch your jaw hit the floor as they say some of y the most self-hating things youll ever hear come out of a person's mouth.
It is clearly self-evident that all people of peaceful will are born equal regardless of religion, sexuality or skin color so never let those bigots control your life.
As long as you arent harming anybody or anything else and youre happy? Who is to tell you that you should 'feel wrong' ?
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