• ⚠️ UK Access Block Notice: Beginning July 1, 2025, this site will no longer be accessible from the United Kingdom. This is a voluntary decision made by the site's administrators. We were not forced or ordered to implement this block.

Sleeper System

Sleeper System

Z z Z z Z z Z z Z z Z
May 5, 2022
826
" Fall deeper into the illusion and remain there for as long as you can.
It's better than the alternative. Be blissfully and purposefully ignorant.
Stave off the self destructive thoughts in your brain.
Push them as far back or as far down as you possibly can.
Forget searching for meaning and purpose. Just try to live comfortably.
Work your little job. Complete your little goals. Keep your eyes shut.
Hope that when you open them again you will be at deaths door.
Because death is both patiant and inescapable. "

I'm trying to keep those words close to my spirit.
Doing rather well given the circumstances.
I feel like I'm always standing in the middle of a cliff...
Looking forward watching the ground infront of me slowly fall to the ocean.
Waiting until it gets to the point where the ground beneath my feet gives way and I too fall into the depths. It all sounds rather depressing and edgy.

Trying to trick your own mind into not focusing on yourself is hard work.
Especially when it's you inside the body experiencing life.
I have a lot to be thankful and grateful for even though it's very little in terms of society and the economy.

This site being here helps me a lot. I could always write this stuff in a journal and never show the world. I like the fact I can sure my words here with like minded sad people as equally or more sufficiently in the throws of despair than even me. I appreciate the support and will continue to contribute when ever I can. 💀


10GSjO2zW3bzl6
 
  • Love
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: Myforevercharlie, Neverfeltdeader, Forever Sleep and 3 others

Similar threads

Noir
Replies
0
Views
139
Suicide Discussion
Noir
Noir
misanthropemurder
Replies
0
Views
117
Suicide Discussion
misanthropemurder
misanthropemurder
XKZyn
Replies
4
Views
262
Suicide Discussion
fedup1982
F
returntostardust
Replies
2
Views
196
Recovery
returntostardust
returntostardust
ma0
Replies
3
Views
274
Suicide Discussion
roadkill111
roadkill111