Bad mental state

[lostandsad]

I'm in such a bad mental state that I can't bring myself to kill myself. I know if I had a way in front of my eyes, I would. The closest I came was when I took stimulant antidepressants which proves my point

 

[dazed.daydreamer]

I'm the same way right now. I'm logically(?) suicidal, as in I know I have no reason and likely will have no will to live for the long-term, and committing very soon would be more convenient than putting it off any longer. But I'm so lethargic and spacey at this point that I'm struggling to do it. I've been trying to trigger a stronger suicidal urge so I can just go ahead and do it