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nopurposeinanything

nopurposeinanything

lulu
Jan 3, 2026
69
I just had a bad fight or whatever with my parents and I started freaking the fuck out. I was crying and screaming nonstop, I was hitting myself with my bare hands nonstop, and I kept smashing my head against the wall. I even picked up the sharpest thing I could and tried slitting my throat. Was this a specific kind of episode or was i just overreacting like always?
 
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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒恄薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,013
Sounds like bpd splitting... I'm the same
 
cowboypants

cowboypants

From milkyway
May 7, 2024
567
I think It's like pent up emotions coming out at once? I have some terrible parents too and it's not much use fighting with them. Don't hurt yourself over such people, although I've done and still prolly do in some way and that might make me a hypocrite anyway
 
nopurposeinanything

nopurposeinanything

lulu
Jan 3, 2026
69
Sounds like bpd splitting... I'm the same
they accused me of something... I was so pissed off and they just weren't listening to me. I dont know if I have bpd, but they set me off really bad.
 
madeincruddy

madeincruddy

this body feels like a grave
Dec 3, 2025
24
I can't name it, but I have similar episodes. For me, at least, the feeling is similar to my autistic meltdowns, and it's usually triggered by very heavy, repeated stress in a short amount of time with no way to remove myself from the situation. I don't know if they come from a particular disorder or anything. I think it's just a cycle of being pent up -> being severely stressed -> exploding. And when things are bad, just about anything can set you off.

Edit: I forgot to say, but I don't think I'd consider it an 'overreaction.' Or, at least, I wouldn't say 'overreacting' makes your feelings any less valid/worth addressing. A lot of people are sensitive to certain things, and they might have stronger responses to them than others, but still, that's just how people can be. I have 'overreactions' to certain noises due to sensory issues, but there's a legitimate reason behind it. For you, I'd assume you've got your own things going on. So you can give yourself some grace n_n
 
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