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strangelife

strangelife

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Feb 16, 2024
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I'm in the hospital again, the doctors are trying to figure out my treatment again, but it doesn't make it any easier for me, I feel so bad that I don't even care if I'm at home or in the hospital, I just want to stop this suffering, but all my relatives hope for a miracle or don't quite understand the situation or don't want to believe in it. how could such a healthy and active person become so sick in a few months. I put up with all this just for the sake of my family, so that they do not think in the case of my CTB that I am weak and did not try to do my best. although my brother says that even after becoming disabled, it is necessary to continue living, but I think people say this only because they themselves have not found themselves in such a state and they do not understand it. If someone has had such an experience, please write your thoughts.
 
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Dark Window

Dark Window

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May I ask what your condition is if you're ok to share.
 
strangelife

strangelife

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Feb 16, 2024
364
May I ask what your condition is if you're ok to share.
Yes, I have a neurological vascular disease, it did not manifest itself before I suffered a minor neck injury, now doctors cannot make an accurate diagnosis, but it is getting harder for me to walk and I cannot even sit for more than 5 minutes. Back in December, I felt like a completely healthy person and was doing sports.
 
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Dark Window

Dark Window

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Yes, I have a neurological vascular disease, it did not manifest itself before I suffered a minor neck injury, now doctors cannot make an accurate diagnosis, but it is getting harder for me to walk and I cannot even sit for more than 5 minutes. Back in December, I felt like a completely healthy person and was doing sports.
So sorry about this buddy. Keep going to the docs and continue to give 100% to get better, but if nothing works, if I were in your situation I'd probably CTB.
 
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strangelife

strangelife

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Feb 16, 2024
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So sorry about this buddy. Keep going to the docs and continue to give 100% to get better, but if nothing works, if I were in your situation I'd probably CTB.
I have always said and was convinced that it is better to die than to become disabled, and now I have faced these myself, I am very offended that this happens to me and most of all I feel sorry for my loved ones
 
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destinationlosangel

destinationlosangel

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Feb 16, 2024
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Hey I'm sorry to hear that you are going thru this. We are sorta in the same boat so i totally feel you. Keep trying. Honestly for me, after everything, i was happy to know atleast there's an option to cbt. Which is a likely path if things get worse. Once again, im sorry that ur going thru this.
I have always said and was convinced that it is better to die than to become disabled, and now I have faced these myself, I am very offended that this happens to me and most of all I feel sorry for my loved ones
 
strangelife

strangelife

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Feb 16, 2024
364
Hey I'm sorry to hear that you are going thru this. We are sorta in the same boat so i totally feel you. Keep trying. Honestly for me, after everything, i was happy to know atleast there's an option to cbt. Which is a likely path if things get worse. Once again, im sorry that ur going thru this
I'm very sorry, but what about your health, are you trying to recover?
 

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