Venting Autistic and just feels like an empty shell?

[Forg]

I don't have any interests, hobbies, or hyperfixations. I'm terrible at everything (studies, videogames, social stuff, etc).
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‎Making a friend is very hard, because everyone has their own interests, hobbies, skills, personality, history, and all that. I have none of that. I'm nothing. I shouldn't even exist, but misfortunes always happen.
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‎My self-esteem is nonexistent: i'm short. I'm insecure about being Latino, I'm ugly, and I've got a long list of other flaws on top of that.
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‎I'm doomed to fail. I have no clue what I'm going to do. I'm scared of killing myself, but it feels like the only option I actually have, I hate that option, but that's the way it is.

 

[soul2realm]

I don't have any interests, hobbies, or hyperfixations. I'm terrible at everything (studies, videogames, social stuff, etc).
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‎Making a friend is very hard, because everyone has their own interests, hobbies, skills, personality, history, and all that. I have none of that. I'm nothing. I shouldn't even exist, but misfortunes always happen.
‎
‎My self-esteem is nonexistent: i'm short. I'm insecure about being Latino, I'm ugly, and I've got a long list of other flaws on top of that.
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‎I'm doomed to fail. I have no clue what I'm going to do. I'm scared of killing myself, but it feels like the only option I actually have, I hate that option, but that's the way it is.

First of all, you are not ugly, second of all making a friend IS hard for many of us. Those who may seem like having a grand posse, well having a true friend can be a luxury for them as well.
Flaws are what makes us human, doesn't it?
And yeah it may seem that what you do have or do not seem to be the end of the world. But the fact is, even the best of us don't know what we want or how to get it.
Just take one step a day, no matter how small it may be, where it might lead to.
Don't worry about the rest, Life is not in your control, but you have what it wants. Don't give to it that easily.
Giving you the warmest hug.
Feel free to talk anytime.

 

[wilting_flower]

I think I'm autistic too. and I hard relate to the way you feel. like everyone else has so much person inside of them but for me it's just not there.

 

[penguinl0v3s]

I don't have any interests, hobbies, or hyperfixations. I'm terrible at everything (studies, videogames, social stuff, etc).

I'm the same. I have interests that I'm too scared and burnt out to pursue, so in the end it's all the same. Have you heard of autistic burnout?

‎Making a friend is very hard, because everyone has their own interests, hobbies, skills, personality, history, and all that. I have none of that. I'm nothing. I shouldn't even exist, but misfortunes always happen.

Conversation and friendship doesn't require you to be interesting, it only requires you to be interested. You can get by with just asking people about things and acting curious. I don't go outside or do anything ever, and people even find it a bit funny to explain basic human knowledge to me.