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AutisticAcademic

AutisticAcademic

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Apr 9, 2025
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Thank you for welcoming me into this community. I am an early 40s academic and autistic. It's extremely challenging living as an autistic person in a neurotypical world.

I have thought of suicide often, but have no immediate plans. I am, however, confident that when my life does end, it will be a self-chosen death.

I struggle with severe depression and anxiety. I've had a suicide kit next to my bed for the past 5 years. It's probably expired and I'm looking into getting a new one.

Having ready-access to a suicide kit helps me to live a better life. It brings me great comfort to know that if life becomes unbearable, I can simply check out. I have extremely good impulse control and I do not feel there is a risk of making an impulsive bad decision to use the kit.

Thank you for allowing me to be a part of this community. I wish you peace and comfort whether it's in this world, or in checking out.
 
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ramon

ramon

Student
Aug 10, 2024
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Though my comment means little to nothing...

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Izzythebelle

Izzythebelle

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Mar 8, 2025
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Welcome! I'm also autistic and suicidal, in that order haha. It's cool to know that you've got an exit strategy without an intention, there's something awesome about knowing your exit is going to be a self-chosen one. Feel free to reach out, and welcome!
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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Peace is all I personally hope for, I wish you the best as well.
 
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