Attempting partial again tonight...

[Walilamdzi]

Wish me luck! Not feeling very hopeful since I don't know what I'm doing wrong but will have another 2 hours to attempt later today.

 

[GirlBye]

Have you done much research on partial? can you describe whats been going wrong for you when you have attempted? I found my SI kicked in after even a few seconds and that was my major issue, which is why partial is no longer an option for me.

 

[Walilamdzi]

Have you done much research on partial? can you describe whats been going wrong for you when you have attempted? I found my SI kicked in after even a few seconds and that was my major issue, which is why partial is no longer an option for me.

I've read everything on this website and tried to research thoroughly but it's the exact same thing for me, really. The closest I came was hearing ringing in my ears and blurred vision but I can't even really remember what I did differently that time. I am planning to attach the ligature to a pull-up bar on the doorframe but maybe higher up than what I tried yesterday and with a stool or something. But after I tried yesterday I was thinking "oh I'm going to have to acquire SN", or something. Because I'm not sure how I can try to alter my setup. But then reading about people managing with far-from-ideal anchor points and ligatures (e.g. I read about someone managing to complete partial by tying a blanket around a sink in a psych ward), I think it must be possible. I think when I've been kneeling I probably have been resisting putting enough of my weight on the rope.

 

[Letmego. Please]

Sorry @Walilamdzi

I can't wish you luck, I can hope for many things but not for you to leave, even though I respect your decision & will do the same myself anyway.
So (((Hugs))) instead

 

[GirlBye]

Yeah I also tried using a pull up bar and small stool with full suspension, that was the closest i got and actually almost didnt get out of it, I tied two belts (one to hold the other)and then kicked the stool out, but it was far from peaceful and i struggled out of it.
Do you want to talk about stuff? what is causing you to want to ctb? I hope you find a way to go peacefully and painlessly if that is what you want x

 

[Walilamdzi]

So I just leaned on my setup and felt tingling in my arms but then felt overwhelmed by the permanency of it. Not sure if I will go through with it because I got this sense of like, what's to lose?

From the tingling and build up of pressure though I'm getting to a stage where I move but think "if I don't move, I'll black out soon..." but then I move so I don't know...

 

[Walilamdzi]

My survival instinct was pretty strong, but that was my most serious attempt I guess. The next day my neck hurts a lot, generally and swallowing and I have red marks which luckily aren't very obvious and it feels like I started to bite my tongue. I'm not sure what jolted me into moving but that was definitely my most serious attempt yet, but once I realised what was happening I was in a total rush to get out of my setup involuntarily shouting "no!" and rushing to unclip the carabiner I'd attached myself with. Not too sure what to think about this. There's definitely a strong sense of dread with this method. I may try again though as I have nothing else available to me.