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AtLeastThere'sSalad

AtLeastThere'sSalad

Member
Dec 10, 2020
19
I'm just tired of trying, getting scared, and backing out. Then I try to get better, go through a cycle of better then worse then better then worse then much better then much much worse until I try and get scared and back out again. Mental hospitals suck. I try so hard to get better, but however much I improve, the bad gets worse. The range of emotions just gets wider and normal functioning gets more and more rare. I'm tired y'all. I don't get why I do this to myself, either the trying to ctb or trying to recover. Both just suck.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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Life certainly is exhausting. I know how you feel, it is hopeless when we try to get better and we just end up worse. There is only so much we are able to cope with. I wish you well.
 
OkFaithlessness

OkFaithlessness

existing
Jun 21, 2021
10
You are understood. This is why not even suicide can compete with sheer antinatalism. Unfortunately, this, is all we have. Wish you luck!
 

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