Discussion Are you happy or sad/depressed for most of the day?

[DarknessWave]

It can be a mix of both for me most of the days. What about you?

 

[Michi_Violeta]

A rollercoaster of distraction, a happy little moment here and there, and then just flashbacks, the memory of her, the beautiful, the traumatizing: always her. I think of beds, the different beds I've slept on during these past few years, how far I've come and how much I've survived only for life to hurt me in the same way when I was starting to feel hope.

 

[TransTaxEvader]

I've kind of stopped feeling. Everything seems so distant now that I've chosen to die on the 31st.

I have nothing to worry about, all I have to do is enjoy my short time here.

I just feel numb I suppose.

 

[kvorumese]

mostly sad but tbh i cannot figure out my emotions properly and entirely. when i'm with my friends i'm happy but idk if i am showing my actual real personality and emotions and feelings or not. i don't fucking know

 

[Hollowman]

I'm numb and out of it most of my days.

 

[FuneralCry]

For me existing is only suffering, I always find it so dreadful to be burdened with this futile, torturous existence, I've always hoped for non-existence and it's all I could wish for no matter what, I just want to never suffer ever again. I personally don't believe in the idea of happiness in existing as I see existence itself as the problem that just causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I just don't wish to be conscious of anything at all rather I just want nothingness.

I just want peace and I always suffer so much from how the option to just permanently cease existing is so cruelly denied for me with suffering seen as to force and prolong no matter what instead, it's just horrific to me how a human can suffer for so long enslaved in this existence that was so tragically imposed just to die in agony from old age, I always find it so dreadful how I was forced into this existence of unnecessary suffering that always felt like a mistake to me in the first place.

 

[Namelesa]

For most of my days I feel empty and bored and spikes of anxiety or depression or guilt can happen or build up over time but occasionally happiness can appear. Tho recently I have been more mixed in happy and other emotions.

 

[hereornot]

Enter sadman

 

[ConfusedClouds]

Neutral/nothingness. Unless I start trying to answer questions or find words or 'work it out' and then it just ends up an overwhelmed mess of confusion and frustration and no actual set 'feelings' - all or nothing - too many or numb

 

[grapevoid]

I rarely feel sad. But I rarely feel happy either.

 

[sadsoni]

Often sad. Presently there is a deep, insidious anxiety that erupts into full-blown panic when I receive remotely negative news. Monday I was speaking to a recruiter and he said the company needs some more time to consider hiring me, or some lame lame excuse like that, I literally ran to the bathroom and started crying.

 

[Izzythebelle]

Recently, as in the past four days, I've felt actively good. I've been able to spend time with some friends and my best friend, found a new bike trail to ride along, and my favorite chicken spot is having a discount all week! That said, it's only for brief moments. When I feel good, it feels great, but it's weighed down because I can already feel the depression and numbness crawling back in. It's like standing in the sun and watching the fog roll in.

 

[RinneOfAragon]

I ticked the other/Confusing emotions box, i think i ticked the wrong one. Haha see im even confused about that. I'm naturally a pretty emotional person. I don't really cry at movies though, mainly music that reminds me of people or situations. Medication has definitely dulled my sadness at the moment. Wouldn't say I'm happy though, currently very stressed/anxious at the moment. Feeling very under pressure. Also recently disappointed with a member of family I looked up to.

 

[Marbas]

For me it's anxiety. I have bad anxiety so most of my day I feel anxious.

 

[RinneOfAragon]

For me it's anxiety. I have bad anxiety so most of my day I feel anxious.

I can relate right now hugs

 

[patheticparasite]

I believe I have replaced anxiety with depression over the years. Most of the things that made me feel anxious I've cut out of my life and now everything is pointless.

 

[SmilingNoMore]

Empty, tired, doomed, happiness long gone, only fake smiles, sad but no tears, etc.