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Gabbi_Station

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Jul 30, 2024
87
I just can't ever believe there's someone satisfied with their lives and enjoy living?

Everyone I know seems damn miserable in some way.
 
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martyrdom

martyrdom

inanimate object
Nov 3, 2025
426
There are so many, yes. I was really really happy before what happened to me.
 
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humaneyes__

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Aug 27, 2022
19
the person that i love seems quite happy with her partner who she loves.

i cannot imagine and will never know how that feels.
 
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cat0boy

cat0boy

misanthropic final boss
Jan 7, 2026
20
I just can't ever believe there's someone satisfied with their lives and enjoy living?

Everyone I know seems damn miserable in some way.
they're all fucking delusional bro, thats what i realized. they live within a lie. sometimes ppl can be happy for a short while but it ends SO fast. something always goes wrong, trust me
 
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jb.fletcher

jb.fletcher

The one that's all sixes and sevens?
May 21, 2025
34
Yes, those people exist. I'm happy living, enjoy living, but not completely satisfied, not yet anyways. Are there miserable pieces of life in general? Yes, I think there is for everyone
 
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Gabbi_Station

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Jul 30, 2024
87
Yes, those people exist. I'm happy living, enjoy living, but not completely satisfied, not yet anyways. Are there miserable pieces of life in general? Yes, I think there is for everyone
Idk- I try to be enjoy life… but I can't really remember any period in my life that has ever been particularly "happy".

I constantly see people who seem happy with their lives and where they are at… but I just don't understand it.

Most of my life has been spent trying to ctb or thinking about it, if I am being honest. Graduate school was probably the only "happy" period of my life… and it ultimately amounted to nothing.
 
Spite

Spite

Nil Desperandum.
Aug 20, 2025
232
Seemingly so. It's all so strange. "Feeling happy about life" has always been a very foreign concept to me.
 
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jb.fletcher

jb.fletcher

The one that's all sixes and sevens?
May 21, 2025
34
Idk- I try to be enjoy life… but I can't really remember any period in my life that has ever been particularly "happy".

I constantly see people who seem happy with their lives and where they are at… but I just don't understand it.

Most of my life has been spent trying to ctb or thinking about it, if I am being honest. Graduate school was probably the only "happy" period of my life… and it ultimately amounted to nothing.
I think what amounts to happiness varies person to person- so my happiness may look completely foolish to a different person!
I know it's cliche to say attitude is everything, but sometimes it's the truth. I can recall happy times and really dark depressing times, but I look at it in seasons rather than focusing on one of the other, there's always something coming next. It could be worse but it could be better. So I just go with the flow, overthinking can be such a bad enemy to your mind.
Graduate school sounds like it was exciting and congratulations on making it there! I'm sorry that happiness eludes you my friend, I hope that some day you can understand.
You can always reach out, I'm here if you need an ear or different perspective. Anything I can do to help
 
ScaredCutter

ScaredCutter

put a red heart if u love espoir city
Oct 16, 2025
173
therell always be people who enjoy life and see the most out of it, find smth new everyday and always be full of hope and joy. sometimes i feel happy about life but, it doesnt last so long, it can be for a few days at most or maybe a week.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,012
No, I don't believe in such a thing as happiness in existing, existence is so evil and just causes endless suffering and torture with existing beings in agony every second, I'll always see existence as the most terrible mistake that just causes endless amounts of torture, harm, cruelty and suffering, there's nothing happy about any of this rather it's the opposite.

There's just so much evil in this agonising torturous existence with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and every second is torture to exist, to be burdened with thus existence truly is an abomination that just harms existing beings, the fact that humans choose to cause all this dreadful suffering by so tragically imposing this existence that there was never a need for is just so horrific to me, to be tortured in this existence for decades longer just to face the extreme unbearable agony of old age truly would be the most terrible, undeserved punishment, for me only non-existence is positive, only in non-existence will I finally be at peace from the evil of existence,
 
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Dark Moon

Dark Moon

Paragon
Sep 21, 2022
940
I guess those people that are happy are normal and well adjusted. I don't think I could genuinely happy again.
 
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lpdsvm

Member
Jan 11, 2026
91
I cannot remember a day. Not saying I suffered, but constant lack of something. Usually money. It didn't let me fit in. I was always shy. And any issue would make me anxious because no money. Now I kinda have, but fear of losing my income makes me anxious but less with this website (it showed me good methods). I remember the main steps by heart. And SN is with me.
I have a few potential issues but I dont want to repeat it again and again lol

I don't care about any money. I can exit. I like my job, I don't like what comes with it though. But if it wasn't for my exit options I would have been so anxious right now omg.
I also remember a day when a group of kids tried to make me drown but someone heard and they stopped. They tried doing it without a lot of effort then increased their effort but stopped. I am not sure why I was just about 8-10 - they were older than me back then.
One of them is dead in Ukraine I am abroad - Karma
It doesn't make me CTB - screw those orcs. What makes me think about it is my current financial and legal (stay) state. Kinda related but not to those, unalived in Ukraine, assholes.
 
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darksouls

Visionary
May 10, 2025
2,549
the majority of people in my country feel happy about life because they enjoy life, they exploit animals and they exploit people in poor countries
 
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LonelyPrince

Rotten to the Core
Dec 12, 2025
124
I just can't ever believe there's someone satisfied with their lives and enjoy living?

Everyone I know seems damn miserable in some way.
I feel like the only way to truly be happy is to believe in delusions
 
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xXSufferingXx

Warlock
Feb 21, 2025
798
I just can't ever believe there's someone satisfied with their lives and enjoy living?

Everyone I know seems damn miserable in some way.
i asked this a few months ago, i also can't believe anyone can be truly happy in this world.
but then i hear idiots rant about how bad suicide is.
then you can tell they have zero understanding because they can't relate.
they've never gone thru enough shit to finally have had enough
 
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ophelia1989

Member
Jan 6, 2026
9
they're all fucking delusional bro, thats what i realized. they live within a lie. sometimes ppl can be happy for a short while but it ends SO fast. something always goes wrong, trust me
Delulu is the solulu 😂
 
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Gabbi_Station

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Jul 30, 2024
87
i asked this a few months ago, i also can't believe anyone can be truly happy in this world.
but then i hear idiots rant about how bad suicide is.
then you can tell they have zero understanding because they can't relate.
they've never gone thru enough shit to finally have had enough
Yeah- I used to believe that maybe it was simply "certain people just have easier lives" and constantly felt resentful… but nowadays that doesn't seem completely true…

Even people I know with money/stability and comfy zoom jobs seem miserable
 

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