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sohopelessandempty

sohopelessandempty

Still alive, just not active here sometimes so dw
Nov 23, 2025
183
Obviously euthanasia is off the table, can't buy drugs either, please somebody tell me a painless way where I don't have to purchase anything. I want to hang myself but I hear that's painful too, both partial and full suspension.
 
woofwag

woofwag

Bad dog
Sep 17, 2025
350
If you do partial/full suspension correctly you will not feel any pain. However, pretty much all peaceful methods are going to require a purchase of some kind. But there are some that don't cost too much. I've heard pressure cuff method is relatively cheap.
 
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sohopelessandempty

sohopelessandempty

Still alive, just not active here sometimes so dw
Nov 23, 2025
183
If you do partial/full suspension correctly you will not feel any pain. However, pretty much all peaceful methods are going to require a purchase of some kind. But there are some that don't cost too much. I've heard pressure cuff method is relatively cheap.
This is what I HEAR, but then I hear from people who've actually tried and they describe such uncomfortable physical sensations I'm scared. Is this one of those things that works in theory but not much in real life? EDIT: when I was young and stupid, I'd tie pants or something around my neck and put a bag(not plastic, just regular one, idk what I was thinking) over my head and hope for the best, but I always felt like my eyes were gonna pop out so I'd untie it. I never want to experience that feeling again, which is why I'm scared of a rope around my neck.
 
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bananaolympus

bananaolympus

Specialist
Dec 12, 2024
377
Well i fell from a balcony wasn't to tall but i was going to die my internal bleeding was severe no pain really adrenaline is incredible, stubbing your toe is much more painfull no kidding, but why did i survive? because a paramedic was walking by and an ambulance was around the corner, looked down the street was empty jumped no more after 5 sec or so, 1 minure later the paramedic was on me 5 min i was inside the ambulance, emergency surgery done by one of the top docs in my location because of kindness no fucking joking gave a big discount in my follow up surgeries...
 
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sohopelessandempty

sohopelessandempty

Still alive, just not active here sometimes so dw
Nov 23, 2025
183
Well i fell from a balcony wasn't to tall but i was going to die my internal bleeding was severe no pain really adrenaline is incredible, stubbing your toe is much more painfull no kidding, but why did i survive? because a paramedic was walking by and an ambulance was around the corner, looked down the street was empty jumped no more after 5 sec or so, 1 minure later the paramedic was on me 5 min i was inside the ambulance, emergency surgery done by one of the top docs in my location because of kindness no fucking joking gave a big discount in my follow up surgeries...
Really? No pain??? That sounds insane to me, I'm not sure if I trust my body enough to give enough adrenaline to numb the pain.
 
bananaolympus

bananaolympus

Specialist
Dec 12, 2024
377
Really? No pain??? That sounds insane to me, I'm not sure if I trust my body enough to give enough adrenaline to numb the pain.
well maybe i was lucky with the adrenaline rush i don't know i did passed out from the blood loss inside the ambulance, but the fall really didn't hurt
 
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nightlighter

nightlighter

Member
Nov 29, 2025
13
well maybe i was lucky with the adrenaline rush i don't know i did passed out from the blood loss inside the ambulance, but the fall really didn't hurt
do you know which part of your body hit first when you fell? understandable if you dont know
 
sohopelessandempty

sohopelessandempty

Still alive, just not active here sometimes so dw
Nov 23, 2025
183
My jaw and femurs
I wonder if there's anyone else who survived falling who could say the same thing, I might try if it's truly painless and I find a good place, but I'm scared your experience was a unique one.
 
ipmanwc0

ipmanwc0

Doctor Sleep
Sep 15, 2023
618
I wonder if there's anyone else who survived falling who could say the same thing, I might try if it's truly painless and I find a good place, but I'm scared your experience was a unique one.
Hey, did you decide to die then?
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,037
I wish that's the reality but of course I exist in this horrific anti-suicide world, it truly is so dreadful and so cruel how there isn't the option to just peacefully cease existing with no more pain and no more suffering, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to find true peace from this torturous existence I just always saw as the most terrible mistake, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.
 
Spicy Tteokbokki

Spicy Tteokbokki

매운 떡볶이
Oct 11, 2020
355
Well i fell from a balcony wasn't to tall but i was going to die my internal bleeding was severe no pain really adrenaline is incredible, stubbing your toe is much more painfull no kidding, but why did i survive? because a paramedic was walking by and an ambulance was around the corner, looked down the street was empty jumped no more after 5 sec or so, 1 minure later the paramedic was on me 5 min i was inside the ambulance, emergency surgery done by one of the top docs in my location because of kindness no fucking joking gave a big discount in my follow up surgeries...
Interesting how most people would say it is a sign from God or similar and that you got another shot at life, or that it wasn't your time just yet.
Those are some wild circumstances, though.
 
madameviolette

madameviolette

Another Big Pharma victim
Oct 9, 2025
524
well maybe i was lucky with the adrenaline rush i don't know i did passed out from the blood loss inside the ambulance, but the fall really didn't hurt
So you were still conscious on the ground ?
 
SymphonyOfSuffering

SymphonyOfSuffering

Member
Nov 19, 2025
28
Well i fell from a balcony wasn't to tall but i was going to die my internal bleeding was severe no pain really adrenaline is incredible, stubbing your toe is much more painfull no kidding, but why did i survive? because a paramedic was walking by and an ambulance was around the corner, looked down the street was empty jumped no more after 5 sec or so, 1 minure later the paramedic was on me 5 min i was inside the ambulance, emergency surgery done by one of the top docs in my location because of kindness no fucking joking gave a big discount in my follow up surgeries...
how many stories if u dont mind me asking
 
sohopelessandempty

sohopelessandempty

Still alive, just not active here sometimes so dw
Nov 23, 2025
183
Hey, did you decide to die then?
No. I'm staying alive, but I want to know how to ctb JUST IN CASE life leaves me no choice.
I wish that's the reality but of course I exist in this horrific anti-suicide world, it truly is so dreadful and so cruel how there isn't the option to just peacefully cease existing with no more pain and no more suffering, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to find true peace from this torturous existence I just always saw as the most terrible mistake, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.
I hope you find some relief too. Sorry if this is a dumb question, you don't have to answer, but why are you like this? I am this way due to mental illness and shitty circumstances, is your situation the same?
 
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Morris1211

Student
Nov 29, 2025
145
How
Well i fell from a balcony wasn't to tall but i was going to die my internal bleeding was severe no pain really adrenaline is incredible, stubbing your toe is much more painfull no kidding, but why did i survive? because a paramedic was walking by and an ambulance was around the corner, looked down the street was empty jumped no more after 5 sec or so, 1 minure later the paramedic was on me 5 min i was inside the ambulance, emergency surgery done by one of the top docs in my location because of kindness no fucking joking gave a big discount in my follow up surgeries...
How high did you fall from?
 
bananaolympus

bananaolympus

Specialist
Dec 12, 2024
377
How

How high did you fall from?
15m
how many stories if u dont mind me asking
15m
So you were still conscious on the ground ?
Yeah but just very lightheaded
Interesting how most people would say it is a sign from God or similar and that you got another shot at life, or that it wasn't your time just yet.
Those are some wild circumstances, though.
I was a hardcore atheist that bs made me an agnostic
 
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