April Planning

[Poptart]

Here's my plan. Feel free to critique or comment. I can't fail this time.

I'm going to try everything to kill me at once. BUT I dont want my family to find my body nor do I want it to get so badly decomposed it can't be used in a funeral. (My cousin committed suicide in a river and we didnt find her body until weeks later. Her body couldnt be viewed or used.)

Step 1: take my entire 90 day supply of lithium. Dying by lithium toxicity is extremely painful so hopefully my other methods work.
Step 2: slit my wrists as deep as I can manage. I'm already a cutter so it wont be as shocking but I can imagine its plenty painful.
Step 3: partial hanging from my closet. Ive already tested the weight it can hold. Ive tried this once and lost consciousness fairly quickly. Unfortunately, I regained consciousness. This time I won't take the rope off, I'm considering tying my hands together.

I plan on doing all three. I'll call suicide hotline after I take my lithium. I wont tell them where I am. They'll contact the police who will find my body too late.

I'll leave the doors unlocked so no one has to break down any doors and damage the house. (It's my sisters rental.)

And ill make sure my house is clean and anything embarrassing is tossed.

April 15th is the deadline I have set.

Is there anything I haven't considered? My biggest fear is suicide hotline contact the police too early and they somehow find my address in time to save me as a vegetable. But im not sure how else to do it.

 

[Yomyom]

Seen very unpleasant and complicated.
Have you consider SN? It must be more peaceful that that

 

[jgm63]

Here's my plan. Feel free to critique or comment. I can't fail this time.

I'm going to try everything to kill me at once. BUT I dont want my family to find my body nor do I want it to get so badly decomposed it can't be used in a funeral. (My cousin committed suicide in a river and we didnt find her body until weeks later. Her body couldnt be viewed or used.)

Step 1: take my entire 90 day supply of lithium. Dying by lithium toxicity is extremely painful so hopefully my other methods work.
Step 2: slit my wrists as deep as I can manage. I'm already a cutter so it wont be as shocking but I can imagine its plenty painful.
Step 3: partial hanging from my closet. Ive already tested the weight it can hold. Ive tried this once and lost consciousness fairly quickly. Unfortunately, I regained consciousness. This time I won't take the rope off, I'm considering tying my hands together.

I plan on doing all three. I'll call suicide hotline after I take my lithium. I wont tell them where I am. They'll contact the police who will find my body too late.

I'll leave the doors unlocked so no one has to break down any doors and damage the house. (It's my sisters rental.)

And ill make sure my house is clean and anything embarrassing is tossed.

April 15th is the deadline I have set.

Is there anything I haven't considered? My biggest fear is suicide hotline contact the police too early and they somehow find my address in time to save me as a vegetable. But im not sure how else to do it.

I would think that jumping or SN would both be better options than the method you've described, however of course you must make your own decisions.

Have you considered your options carefully ?
e.g. can you focus on recovery and healing yourself ?