Seems I'll ctb next month. I am desperate to die. I wasted a chance back in January I regret a lot. I will order SN again and do it without hesitation. I am tired of all this. I have enough. Today I realized life is not for me anymore and better be dead. Why everything is so hard? Why am I unlucky of being living? Why I didn't die in an accident or killed by someone? I can't wait to leave this world. I want to back where I was before I was born. At least I didn't suffee there. Hope everything goes right as planned. Life hurts.
Dust
Dust
