anything to make me better. anything.

[voidfluidoverdose]

Therapy hasn't worked. Meds haven't worked. No matter what I try it doesn't get me out of this cycle. I've considered creating some kind of experimental concoction of weed (which my parents have) and some sort of opiate (unknown where to find) to shut my brain up long enough for me to get things done. Possibly shrooms to do... something. On the weekends. Heard that can fix people. You can buy spores on the internet and grow your own I've heard. If none of this works I might hospitalize myself. I'm in last resort territory here. I'm not asking for comfort, that's short-term and won't fix anything. I need methods of fixing myself by any means neccessary.

 

[timf]

There are herbs that have been used traditionally like St. Johns Wort or supplements like GABA to turn down brain activity. Researching these things and experimenting might turn up something useful.

In the longer term, you may want to experiment developing skills that will let you have greater intentional control over your life so that what you are trying to numb may not be running so wild as to need numbing.

 

[Topaz111]

There are herbs that have been used traditionally like St. Johns Wort or supplements like GABA to turn down brain activity. Researching these things and experimenting might turn up something useful.

In the longer term, you may want to experiment developing skills that will let you have greater intentional control over your life so that what you are trying to numb may not be running so wild as to need numbing.

Important warning!
A lot of medications have an interaction with St. John's Wort so if you are taking anything check if there are interactions! (there are plenty of websites for it)