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deathisapanacea

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Mar 10, 2025
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I've been on this forum for well over 18 months and I am no closer to committing suicide today than what I was 18 months back, despite all the insights and contacts I got from this forum. I am gradually losing confidence about committing suicide because of my cowardice and dormant nature. Is there anyone else out there in a similar situation ?
 
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Useless Idiot

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Jan 24, 2026
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Me...I am the biggest coward in the world. Nowadays I think I will never be able to ctb and will have to keep on suffering untill I grow old and die a natural death. That will be a long time cause I am only 20. When all way is blocked we decide to ctb, I feel like even that way is blocked for me too.
 
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NoHorizon

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Nov 22, 2022
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Absolutely. I've been wishing I could work up the courage to kill myself all week and I'm just too scared. I've had the means for so long now it just feels pathetic that I can't seem to bring myself to do it.
 
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