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Saponification

Saponification

A piece of nothing
Jun 27, 2024
135
Despite giving up on life a while ago, I lead a very healthy lifestyle; I exercise, eat healthy shit, etc.

I guess it's a habit I haven't ditched yet from back where I was trying to see if I could fix my life (as you can probably guess, I couldn't—hence why I am on this site writing this right now).

It also makes me feel somewhat fulfilled, I suppose. I know that going back to a sedentary lifestyle and eating junk would make me feel like shit in the long run, so I just stick to healthy habits despite not caring about my life and actively making plans to CTB. Can anyone relate?
 
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mysticatedwine

rotting autistic sun
Mar 4, 2025
64
Yeah, I can kinda relate. I guess some part of me knows that I might survive, even if I don't really want to. As long as I'm not dead, I'm alive; and as long as I'm alive, I must take care of myself. It just wouldn't sit right with me to completely give up on my body and mind before they expire...
 
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imsotired35

She/her
Apr 6, 2024
98
Yeah. I'm pretty high functioning atm. Sometimes I wish I could fully give up and give in to the depression, go back to how I used to be as a teen. I'm not really sure why I don't. I'm a little bit scared and I have too many responsibilities now that I didn't have as a teenager.
 
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Life'sA6itch

Lights out please
Oct 29, 2023
333
Despite giving up on life a while ago, I lead a very healthy lifestyle; I exercise, eat healthy shit, etc.

I guess it's a habit I haven't ditched yet from back where I was trying to see if I could fix my life (as you can probably guess, I couldn't—hence why I am on this site writing this right now).

It also makes me feel somewhat fulfilled, I suppose. I know that going back to a sedentary lifestyle and eating junk would make me feel like shit in the long run, so I just stick to healthy habits despite not caring about my life and actively making plans to CTB. Can anyone relate?
I bounce back and forth and was thinking how odd it is to be worried about getting enough protein or omega 3's and the next day I'm flat on my arse for 24 hours rotting in bed then I drag myself out and think about how I need to up my water intake.
 
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zappynomore

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Feb 22, 2025
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depends some times I can be but other times the depression does stop me even doing simple things like doing daily walks etc.
 
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Life'sA6itch

Lights out please
Oct 29, 2023
333
depends some times I can be but other times the depression does stop me even doing simple things like doing daily walks etc.
It's the same for me, some days I accomplish nothing.
 

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