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jinmaopoison

jinmaopoison

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Oct 6, 2025
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Thinking about it has me so giddy and happy like finally this fuckass bullshit will be over. Kicking my feet and giggling
 
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fedup1982

Mage
Jul 17, 2025
510
I used to when I thought it was possible. FCK LIFE! 😭
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
14,577
More in a passive ideation way- I can't wait to be free of my life type of thing. Actually going through the process of killing myself scares me.
 
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fuewybfunsfoiceoi

fuewybfunsfoiceoi

life is short, make it shorter
Mar 3, 2024
126
318 more days, legit the only thing that can relax me enough for me to fall asleep
 
NonEssential

NonEssential

Hanging in there
Jan 15, 2025
567
I gave myself a date, it has me nervous but I just need to remind myself that it's better than the alternative.
 
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Luke27

Luke27

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Apr 3, 2024
37
You don't get excited about something you know isn't going to happen
 
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Alexandra_

Alexandra_

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
785
I really want to commit suicide. But I can't do it yet due to certain circumstances
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,226
Thinking about it has me so giddy and happy like finally this fuckass bullshit will be over. Kicking my feet and giggling
Yes I'm really excited to kill myself. Solving all my problems instantly and forever. Escaping this hell. No more suffering, pain, problems, bad memories = Non-existence forever the ultimate perfection

Finally being safe from unbearable pain

Eternal Non-existence is the only guarantee of never suffering so badly its a trillion times worse than the worst u can imagine
 
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Samael96

Samael96

It is not death, but dying, which is terrible.
Jun 12, 2021
70
Thinking about it has me so giddy and happy like finally this fuckass bullshit will be over. Kicking my feet and giggling
I really am, like finally being able to stop the pain and suffering, and on top of that also hoping for some sort of reincarnation gets me ever more excited, i keep thinking "i can't wait to find out what's on the other side", at the same time i am kinda scared of dying in itself, i wish it was just a simple sip of water that puts you to sleep and boom, you are gone without even noticing. I'm using SN so it's kinda close to that hope, but not quite
 
jinmaopoison

jinmaopoison

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Oct 6, 2025
52
I really am, like finally being able to stop the pain and suffering, and on top of that also hoping for some sort of reincarnation gets me ever more excited, i keep thinking "i can't wait to find out what's on the other side", at the same time i am kinda scared of dying in itself, i wish it was just a simple sip of water that puts you to sleep and boom, you are gone without even noticing. I'm using SN so it's kinda close to that hope, but not quite
Read a thread that this person's two friends were unfortunately in pain but at least it's short and guaranteed :/
 
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58Alice85

58Alice85

Autogynephile
Aug 31, 2025
378
I cannot wait. I really hope the survival instinct doesn't get me!
 

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