Help Anyone else have this issue?

[sohopelessandempty]

So basically months ago I had another account on here that I deactivated. I tried many times to get back in there but it wouldn't let me because I registered with one of those temporary emails. So then, I tried logging out and filling out the contact form with my actual email(but like it was hidden, it's an iPhone thing where it hides your email but still sends it to you, just protects your privacy). But this still didn't work and I was never able to get back in, I'm not sure why. Anyways I had to wait a long time to come back here and I'm not sure if anyone remembers me since my account wasn't huge but I feel weird since what if I sound eerily similar to the other account(because it's me). Despite it being deactivated, I looked up my own user and I can still see my posts and stuff and the old mutuals I had who were very sweet and understanding, but if I react to their replies now it looks weird. Please don't ban my account, I really did try everything to get back in the other one and it didn't work. Anyways I'm really glad to be back I just hate the complications since I'm scared of posting anything too similar to before and I also miss my old account since I already had posts. But getting the old account back also sounds stressful since I probably have so many notifs. If anyone is curious I am whenwillthepainstop. Anyways I used my real(but hidden) email for this account and didn't get any emails so if anyone tries to email me it won't do anything probably.
Anyone in the same boat?