Anyone else had to deal with psychosis?

[fedup1982]

I've had my worst episode of "psychosis" ever. And I put it in quotes because I still fucking believe I had a conspiracy after me. And it's also the worst ever because this has been going on for 10 months now.

It was fking hell. Now it's reduced to just being rather unpleasant at times. But multiple times a day I'm triggered still, eg when I hear anyone's notification ping I feel like it could be a message of sorts for me, like the conspiracy is sarcastically saying to me "tada, be afraid, be very afraid". I still can't stop looking at number plates for hidden meanings either

 

[Yume Nikki]

Yes, I was diagnosed in the psych ward not long after believing that I was being followed, stalked, or that the police were after me with no evidence. Then I somehow got a manic episode a few days ago after my brother kept starting fights with me for days on end. My friends do not want to speak to me after my episode ended and I feel embarrassed/humiliated afterwards. We do not choose to have them.

 

[fedup1982]

Yes, I was diagnosed in the psych ward not long after believing that I was being followed, stalked, or that the police were after me with no evidence. Then I somehow got a manic episode a few days ago after my brother kept starting fights with me for days on end. My friends do not want to speak to me after my episode ended and I feel embarrassed/humiliated afterwards. We do not choose to have them.

Thank you so much for replying! Sounds incredibly similar to my episode this time. I've lost all my friends too, assuming they weren't part of the conspiracy, and if they weren't, I don't think I could go back I just don't want to have to deal with all that with everything going on in my mind, it's exhausting.

How long were you in the psych ward for? How long ago? I had a full 2 months in there and it was hell. What exactly happened with your brother? Are you two talking now at least?

 

[lysergamide]

i've been diagnosed with chronic psychosis, problem is, i don't think i have it sooooo???

 

[fedup1982]

i've been diagnosed with chronic psychosis, problem is, i don't think i have it sooooo???

Yeah it's a weird situation to be in. I take the medication anyway just in case it is helping, idk if you feel the same?

 

[lysergamide]

Yeah it's a weird situation to be in. I take the medication anyway just in case it is helping, idk if you feel the same?

i don't think i have a conspiracy against me, i just had like two terrible things happening to me in a short while that destroyed me and rendered me jobless and a mess, it destroyed my mental health, i was so stressed out i'd faint or burst out in tears telling my shrink about it and she just stamped me with the chronic psychosis bs. I don't take my meds, she gave me two antipsychotics and they don't do shit so i stopped taking them, it's seroquel. I mean i just took them in bulk of six pills when i wanted to sleep my days off and then, they quickly run out. I don't see a difference besides "i sleep" and "i don't sleep". She gave me SSRIS cause she also stamped me with chronic depression. they only make me sweat at night, i don't take them anymore. Seriously this is all bs.

 

[fedup1982]

i don't think i have a conspiracy against me, i just had like two terrible things happening to me in a short while that destroyed me and rendered me jobless and a mess, it destroyed my mental health, i was so stressed out i'd faint or burst out in tears telling my shrink about it and she just stamped me with the chronic psychosis bs. I don't take my meds, she gave me two antipsychotics and they don't do shit so i stopped taking them, it's seroquel. I mean i just took them in bulk of six pills when i wanted to sleep my days off and then, they quickly run out. I don't see a difference besides "i sleep" and "i don't sleep". She gave me SSRIS cause she also stamped me with chronic depression. they only make me sweat at night, i don't take them anymore. Seriously this is all bs.

Ah I think I get you now. It's weird how they'd label you with those things when from what you're telling me it does seem like you don't have symptoms after all

 

[trying ungracefully]

Yeah twice due to mania. It was the worst experience for me and my family and it's why I'm willing to be medicated for the rest of my life like I should. Sometimes I still get into some of the delusions but I push them far away which is definitely easier with medication.

Also I look for meanings in license plates too lol.

 

[soon4good]

Only if I've stayed up for a week but not to that extent otherwise personally.

 

[Lostandfound82]

Yes, I have had two episodes of psychosis and I am forever scarred from them and terrified of going through it again. Feel free to message me if you would like to share experiences.

 

[fedup1982]

Yeah twice due to mania. It was the worst experience for me and my family and it's why I'm willing to be medicated for the rest of my life like I should. Sometimes I still get into some of the delusions but I push them far away which is definitely easier with medication.

Also I look for meanings in license plates too lol.

Thanks also for your reply! It's nice to know I'm not the only one that has these symptoms.

Well done with the progress you've made, it definitely is a hard experience