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Armadillo

Experienced
Oct 24, 2018
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So I bought a bottle of vodka around 12 am. Been drinking 'till now (11:56 pm here).
I'm crying but it feels somehow good. I am emotionally flat while sober. Many people drink to numb their feelings, it's the opposite for me.
Today I've been feeling angry, confident, sad, nostalgic, hypomanic sometimes all at once.
It feels good to actually feel something once in a while instead of the usual emotional black hole that I have inside of me.

I'm sorry if the post doesn't make much sense but like I said I'm really drunk. I'm sorry.
 
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worldexploder

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Sep 19, 2018
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I do at times. Sometimes I do have a hardy cry. I can't cry sober anymore. I like to talk a lot when I'm drinking as well, and listen to music etc.
 
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