Discussion Anyone else feel like they are only now processing and being upset about a sexual assault that happened YEARS ago?

[nomoredolor]

Anyone else feel like they are only now processing and being upset about a sexual assault that happened YEARS ago?

I didn't even start to process that I married my rapist until 1-2 years ago. Then I felt sick to my stomach. and it's bothering me a lot lately even though it literally happened almost 12 years ago. It's one of many things haunting my brain. I think I just didn't process my feelings when it happened so I have to process them now. Why must this happen at the same time as the most intense grief I've ever experienced in my life? Also there are nazis. Fuck man it's fucking rough out here, goddamn fuck
Anna

 

[shadows_and_silence]

i really wish you get peace from this situation-

I've been through something similar, although the processing came in after i got sexually assulted again. it's really rough. I'm very sorry, you did not deserve that

 

[soonatpeace777888]

Not sexual assault but there are things that don't bother me at first but a long time after they start to be intrusive thoughts.

 

[Fritz]

Yes, I just turned 60 and am just now starting to realize and come to terms with abuse from more than 50 years ago.

 

[whitetaildeer]

you're not the only one. i ended up rationalizing it as fine... despite my own mother manipulating me into being okay with it when i was a teenager. never talked about it, never wanted to think about it; it's only been since autumn 2024/this year that i've began to process it and realize it's horrific, and i was more than prepared to take this to my grave. i sometimes wonder if it's really "as bad as i remember it being" because it's not the typical kind of violent assaults you hear about on the news or something.

 

[Gstreater]

I understand how you feel it took me nearly a decade to realize that my brother pushing me to do sexual things with him when I was young was bad.