Venting anyone else feel like killing their whole family before themselves?

[glowing.purple.aura]

DISCLAIMER: I do not plan to actually commit these (or any other) illegal acts.

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Yeah, just gonna leave this here because they're the reason my life is hell and they always have been. They metaphorically killed me in every way possible before I even got the chance to live so it would only be what they deserve. They are all pure evil and about 99.9% of what led me to this site in the first place. All they do is push and push and PUSH me to my limit each and every day then abandon me when I finally snap by sending me away. They're all united in their hatred for me so of course whenever I stand up for myself I'm not taken seriously. Those actual demons just enable each other's behavior to the point they think it's acceptable to tell their own son/brother to kill himself—maybe I fucking will, but you'll all be first and maybe then I'll have 5 seconds of peace in my life.

 

[idontknowwhatiam]

God no.

 

[Dejected 55]

Ummm... no... and also, your disclaimer in the beginning falls a bit short, since suicide is typically an illegal act in most parts of the world... so declaring you want to kill people but saying you won't because you will not do anything illegal, will be obscured by wanting to kill yourself, which is also illegal...

Wanting to kill others against their will is a whole different thing that isn't a good place for your brain to be.

 

[BGman89]

I've seriously given it thought before but I doubt it would work and it would just complicate things for myself

Ummm... no... and also, your disclaimer in the beginning falls a bit short, since suicide is typically an illegal act in most parts of the world... so declaring you want to kill people but saying you won't because you will not do anything illegal, will be obscured by wanting to kill yourself, which is also illegal...

Wanting to kill others against their will is a whole different thing that isn't a good place for your brain to be.

wanting to kill yourself is equally as bad of a place to be in lol

 

[BGman89]

sick fuck

you seem like you've never dealt with hellish family members

 

[dewasrite]

Ummm... no... and also, your disclaimer in the beginning falls a bit short, since suicide is typically an illegal act in most parts of the world... so declaring you want to kill people but saying you won't because you will not do anything illegal, will be obscured by wanting to kill yourself, which is also illegal...

Wanting to kill others against their will is a whole different thing that isn't a good place for your brain to be.

I feel like it is also made a bit more suspicious by the fact that there is another thread by OP about buying guns… like… I understand the nature of this site but this really kinda gives, "holy crap man, get help now, please!" vibes.

 

[sulvumnolo]

Im new so idk how dms here work. But msg me. No judgement, just some perspective from experience.

 

[Dejected 55]

I feel like it is also made a bit more suspicious by the fact that there is another thread by OP about buying guns… like… I understand the nature of this site but this really kinda gives, "holy crap man, get help now, please!" vibes.

Yeah... It's not like wanting to kill yourself is great... but at least hurting yourself should be up to you. Wanting to hurt others to the point where you're talking about it openly seems concerning.

 

[WhatCouldHaveBeen32]

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[dewasrite]

Yeah... It's not like wanting to kill yourself is great... but at least hurting yourself should be up to you. Wanting to hurt others to the point where you're talking about it openly seems concerning.

Right?!? I also think the number of people who are responding positively is kinda upsetting. I totally get being angry enough that you feel like you could do it, but damn.

 

[Dejected 55]

Right?!? I also think the number of people who are responding positively is kinda upsetting. I totally get being angry enough that you feel like you could do it, but damn.

There is this weird thing where people recognize bad things when it is done to them but are okay when it is done to others, and celebrate when it is done to people they don't like. It doesn't make logical sense if you think about it, but it is true.

 

[a65b]

DISCLAIMER: I do not plan to actually commit these (or any other) illegal acts.

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Yeah, just gonna leave this here because they're the reason my life is hell and they always have been. They metaphorically killed me in every way possible before I even got the chance to live so it would only be what they deserve. They are all pure evil and about 99.9% of what led me to this site in the first place. All they do is push and push and PUSH me to my limit each and every day then abandon me when I finally snap by sending me away. They're all united in their hatred for me so of course whenever I stand up for myself I'm not taken seriously. Those actual demons just enable each other's behavior to the point they think it's acceptable to tell their own son/brother to kill himself—maybe I fucking will, but you'll all be first and maybe then I'll have 5 seconds of peace in my life.

ive thought of killing my mother because of what she did to me in my childhood, but i wont do it, cutting her off and letting her rot alone was enough of a revenge for me

 

[PI3.14]

No, if anything, I just want to ctb and for them to move on asap.

I ofc hold a lot against them for what they did, but I'll never think or wish that they get harmed, might have thought so in a moment of anger, but generally no, I'm glad that I have a family even if they're far from being the best.

I do understand however why many can end up having these thoughts, many shitty and abusive parents out there unfortunately.

 

[dewasrite]

There is this weird thing where people recognize bad things when it is done to them but are okay when it is done to others, and celebrate when it is done to people they don't like. It doesn't make logical sense if you think about it, but it is true.

That is SO TRUE. I can't say I would have been able to verbalize that myself but I absolutely see it. Not gonna lie… I am hoping that OP is too young to appreciate the gravity of this post? I have noticed a really sad number of young people on this site.

 

[rs929]

No, there are people that harmed me and I kinda hate but I really can't fantasize about murder.

However, it's true that a fantasy it's not the same as the act itself. So I think it's valid to entertain such fantasies, as long as they're just in your mind, and you know very clearly that you wouldn't act on them.

However, when a random stranger posts something like this the obvious question is: are they actually thinking of doing it?

I will assume that you are just fantasizing about it. I think you should discuss this with a therapist, and explore what is causing so much anger and channel it through something more productive and less harmful than those fantasies. I think those ideas are not good for you in the long term.

Hugs

 

[Unlucky777]

No I don't hate my family but I understand how some families can be very toxic towards the scape goat of the family. Some families are truly awful so I understand