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belly.up4good

belly.up4good

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Dec 10, 2024
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Like I mentioned before, I have walked miles just to hangout. I have my reasons whatever. But I was told it was stupid, or crazy. I know I'm not supposed to care about what people think but you know it hurts. If a friend did that for me, I'd think they were cool like it's crazy but not stupid.. I'm very open-minded when it comes to things like that. I don't know. I am definitely crazy but I just like to picture doing extreme things for fun, like if a friend wanted to travel around and just have fun no destination or plan or nothing I would do it. Great example is 'Stand By Me'. I like things like that. Just whimsy things, adventures. This is just one example but like, I have ideas of stories/scenarios in my head a lot and I would like to live them for fun, or experience my favorite fiction media setting.
 
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avoid_slow_death

avoid_slow_death

Ready to embrace the peaceful bliss of the void.
Feb 4, 2020
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When I was younger, yeah. Hell, still do occasionally nowadays, but am far less concerned about that anymore as it seems the world is catching up to me in fringe ideology, but in a more authoritarian way which I feel is far crazier than my very fringe philosophical beliefs. So, nah, I don't feel crazy, the slow decay of civilization vindicates my dark philosophy nowadays.
 
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princessame

princessame

lost in throes to a life i hardly know..
Dec 23, 2024
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With a lot of things like my morals and intrusive thoughts, I always feel incredibly isolated and almost alien. ESPECIALLY with things like how I am a queer person. My specific issue with that is being asexual. I feel like things like intimacy (in a sexual way) is like incredibly instinctual and raw and whatnot, but I just can't seem to feel that way (most likely due to my personality disorder). It makes me sad that I won't be able to provide that for my future partner. Obviously, my future partner won't have a complete issue with it if they're with me at all, but it makes me feel sad that I can't be there for them in that way.
I try to remind myself that I'm not the only one who feels this way, and if I'm with someone romantically, we can always compromise, and they'll love me regardless of such things, but I still can't help but feel hopeless about it anyway.
And I do agree-- your commitment to walking so much to see someone is incredibly admirable! I would probably feel slightly guilty and offer to drive you instead, but if that's something that you like doing, I'd never judge you for it. I'm just impressed you have that much stamina and dedication.
 
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pointblank

pointblank

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Nothing wrong in being spontaneous or being imaginative.
 
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belly.up4good

belly.up4good

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Dec 10, 2024
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Nothing wrong in being spontaneous or being imaginative.
Yes thats the word!! Spontaneous. Oh my god it's amazing
With a lot of things like my morals and intrusive thoughts, I always feel incredibly isolated and almost alien. ESPECIALLY with things like how I am a queer person. My specific issue with that is being asexual. I feel like things like intimacy (in a sexual way) is like incredibly instinctual and raw and whatnot, but I just can't seem to feel that way (most likely due to my personality disorder). It makes me sad that I won't be able to provide that for my future partner. Obviously, my future partner won't have a complete issue with it if they're with me at all, but it makes me feel sad that I can't be there for them in that way.
I try to remind myself that I'm not the only one who feels this way, and if I'm with someone romantically, we can always compromise, and they'll love me regardless of such things, but I still can't help but feel hopeless about it anyway.
And I do agree-- your commitment to walking so much to see someone is incredibly admirable! I would probably feel slightly guilty and offer to drive you instead, but if that's something that you like doing, I'd never judge you for it. I'm just impressed you have that much stamina and dedication.
Yea I've had intrusive thoughts too, or like weird not immoral but just kinda weird scenarios in my head? Like a loved one breaking into my room and me being fine with it lol. I even wrote it as a story. But I just feel like a lot of people would feel offput by the things I think about or do, you know. I already get judgement for things that aren't a big deal it's so dumb. I get being hopeless. If it makes you feel better, I always had the fear of not being able to 'euphoria' for my partner and it came true unfortunately. I have gender dysphoria and self-conciousness so it definitely affects me. But all I can say is just own it you know, you know your limits, it's good you recognize that someone who truly loves you wouldn't mind. I'm sorry you feel limited or incapable to make them happy. We really aren't all the same, and it's okay.

I did end up getting driven at the end lol, I would've made it if they didn't do that. But thank you for not judging, I just, needed to do something different for once. I will say though, my feet were sore! I slept like a baby afterwards. Thank you though, not being called crazy feels better.
 
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princessame

princessame

lost in throes to a life i hardly know..
Dec 23, 2024
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doing something different and changing up your usual routine is for sure something that helps quite a bit, to keep things new and fresh. It's something I obsessively do, otherwise I'd probably go crazy from being trapped away in my room all the time. And I'm sorry that happened with you and your relationship, I hope that things will turn around for the better for you.
And I have no reason to judge-- we all have our quirks. So long you're not outwardly and maliciously hurting someone, then why should it matter? All that matters is how it makes you feel. And if it makes you happy, then I'm content with that.
And I'm sure you did get some good sleep from that, that would've been quite the workout, LOL
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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I've always loved this quote by Dr Seuss:

'Be who you are and say how you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind. You have brains in your head, you have feet in your shoes, you can steer yourself in any direction you choose.'

Really- try not to give a shit if people call you crazy. I like to embrace my crazy. I think some of it at least- like the stuff you described anyway, is endearing. It says to me that you really value friendship. I think that's beautiful.

It's fun to do spontaneous things sometimes. One evening, a friend and I just travelled round on buses eating ice cream. Why not?
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
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Nah, my beliefs are rational as they stem from acknowledging life for what it is instead of blinding myself from the truth. This is enough to make me realise that I'm not crazy for having beliefs that isn't normal. Besides, we live in a world where the majority of people believe in a god. Just because most people believe in something doesn't mean that it's right
 
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I honestly don't give a fuck anymore what people consider normal, I am horrified by how the "normal" average person lives their life and treats others. I never did anything wrong to anyone and still am punished all the time and the "normal" people I know act like criminals and are praised with success. Society is all a cruel game, just be yourself.
 
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No. I think everyone else is crazy, and I am better than everyone else.
 
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Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
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Nah, my beliefs are rational as they stem from acknowledging life for what it is instead of blinding myself from the truth. This is enough to make me realise that I'm not crazy for having beliefs that isn't normal. Besides, we live in a world where the majority of people believe in a god. Just because most people believe in something doesn't mean that it's right

only 17% of Americans believe there is no afterlife. i certainly know there is no afterlife. 83% of people believe there is an afterlife that doesn't mean it's true.

even U.S. scientists 50% believe in god or some higher power.


it's mind boggling . just reading a book like the human genome or the Brain by David Eagleman or molecular cell biology shows you a human is just cells .but reading them all together and many others on evolution , DNA , the cell , the brain ...

imo these are just a few examples of imo false and or irrlational beliefs. for one thing there is not one peice of evidence for any god afterlife, higher power, reincarnation etc.

also imo most humans are not even aware or understand that they are going to die . do they act like it ?

imo most humans think life is a beautiful gift, 99% of humans think life is a good thing in general . i think that i and a human is a brain that can suffer unending constant unbearable pain.

most humans then if they think life is something good also think there is some objective meaning to life. life is meaningless. nothing matters except avoiding extreme suffering and excruciating intolerable pain and extreme torture.


so they are all right and i'm wrong. am i not a brain? yes. can this brain suffer unending constant unbearable pain . yes. what is wort the worst pain the worst unending constant unbearable pain? nothing. there is pain so bad it makes everything else meaningless.

it's mind boggling even 50% of scientists believe in god or some higher power. i believe a human is a machine, cells a brain , chemical reactions. many or most humans want immortality... on and on
 
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