Venting Anyone else disconnected from reality?

[Saponification]

I feel like there is so much space between me and the world around me, or rather "myself" and my own body. Almost like I'm looking through another man's eyes. Similar to when it's freezing outside and you're all numb. I am more present in my imagination than in reality now, though it's been that way my whole life, I guess.

I've been meditating, going outside, breathing, all that mindfulness shit. It does fuck-all. I'm done. At this point going on living is like telling my torturer who is whipping me without so much as a second of pause in the action "yes daddy keep going".

Sorry, I guess this vent got a little weird. Anyways fuck this shit, I hope I gather the courage to catch this fucking bus on 2026.

 

[Realog11]

Yeah I been disconnected from reality ever soon my first overdose maybe I should of went to hospital, I would of got active charcoal and got fixed.

the overdose just ruined me I remember a year later I was using my laptop and just seeing black I froze

 

[Arb]

That's derealisation (Everything around you feels unreal) or depersonalization (Feeling like you're watching yourself from another perspective), they are forms of dissociation