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miles-away

miles-away

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May 13, 2025
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Binging has been my biggest enemy. My entire life I've been an impulsive eater. Putting some sugary and high caloric and my fat ass is 200% eating it and asking for seconds. My weight yo-yos A LOT. Occasionally I'll get into a pattern of restricting and lose a good 10 pounds in two weeks. And then between that I'm just gorging myself on shitty food.

This shit has dominated my life for ten years and robbed me off my teen years lol
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
11,042
So sorry,
It's tough not binging food for me too. Some days are better than others. 🫂🤗🫂🤗🫂
 
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woofwag

woofwag

Bad dog
Sep 17, 2025
336
Yes :( I didn't eat sugar for around 5 years because I would just binge every time. But after my bout with anorexia, I couldn't maintain that diet anymore. I binge on sugar all the time. It's so fucking addicting. I could never seem to beat that cycle of binging, and now I suppose I'll die with it. I hate how my body looks because of it
 
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Lady_V

Lady_V

Please be honest.
Aug 31, 2025
232
My weight yo-yos a lot too. I can gain or drop 10lbs in a week. I'm so tired.
 
inkmage333

inkmage333

please just free me and let me die
Feb 18, 2025
113
So I'm not the only one ... I've tried stopping by starving myself for days on end but I eventually lose the willpower and go back to gorging myself on food again :( I really hate it

I used to know multiple people (online and real life) (also with eating disorders) that were saying "isn't it better to eat too much than to not eat at all?" or something like that and I didn't even know why it felt so wrong to me as a question until fairly recently ... because binging isn't any better than not eating at all imo
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
14,531
I used to be, very badly. I still have an unhealthy relationship with food now, although I haven't had an outright binge for a while.

I think it was this book that was pretty helpful at one time:

'Brain over Binge' by Kathryn Hansen.

I would just mention that a few members have mentioned alternating between these cycles of binging, feeling guilty and restricting. Then, binging again.

I think it may have been this book that I read that the restricting part is effectively setting us up for failure. In that our bodies don't realise what we are doing. They actually think we are now starving so- they send out even more intense signals that they need food. I think also, they are then more keen on holding on to the fats and calories they do then receive because again- the starving response has been triggered. It was a while ago I read all that though- so, I may not have remembered it entirely accurately but, it does make sense in a way.

I think it also puts a person at risk of slipping from binge eating into bulimia nevosa.
 
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Systemic

Member
Dec 18, 2025
19
You too, i feel as im reading my own thoughts

I get periods where i lose wait, carefully log my calories, cut carbs, sugars, eat lot of vegies and fish.

Then everything crumbles and i stuff my face with sweets, chips and shitm and if im too broke i just buy shitoad of potato and make french fries with ketchup ans get fat again
 
gunmetalblue

gunmetalblue

Suicidal Jesus
Oct 31, 2025
352
My ex girlfriend had a binge eating disorder. She was very embarrassed about it, even if i never loved her less for it. Some mornings i'd wake up for work and everything in the kitchen cupboards including the bottle of milk in the fridge would be eaten during a binge she'd have at night.
So i have compassion for you all suffering from it.
 
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Gangrel

Gangrel

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Jul 25, 2024
700
Yeah me too, I'm always like fuck it i will die anyway might as well enjoy it
 
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Systemic

Member
Dec 18, 2025
19
Do you guys feel.huge shame and regret after u eat shitload of food?
 
FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotionally unstable like an IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
1,101
Yeah and the regret later. Is not I can eat a ton of cookies or stuff like that but when im stressed or upset I just eat.

Ofc I feel the regret later. Also boredom can also.

I try to control that stress the best I can.
 
ceelobling

ceelobling

Student
Dec 29, 2025
125
Yes, sometimes if I'm not feeling well. I buy a bunch of different snacks and then alternate between them in one sitting when I'm tired of one. I need food to cope.
 
DarkJason

DarkJason

Angry subhuman loser
Oct 24, 2025
31
I don't typically "binge" per se, but I do have a pretty shitty diet and often use food as a way to cope with my terrible life. Yeah, I know it's not healthy, but I don't really gaf because I'm planning to ctb here in the near future anyway.
 
vyvanceandvodka

vyvanceandvodka

hoping to recover .✦ ݁˖♡
Jan 7, 2026
114
me :( currently laying in bed after binging and i'm in so much pain
 
irelate2centipedes

irelate2centipedes

Member
Jan 11, 2026
6
I have struggled with this unfortunately, and getting help for it seems so futile because "well you're overweight" so me and I'm sure many others are treated as some lab rat. It's nice to know I'm not alone with binging. 💞
 
byou

byou

Member
Jan 15, 2026
7
Binging has been my biggest enemy. My entire life I've been an impulsive eater. Putting some sugary and high caloric and my fat ass is 200% eating it and asking for seconds. My weight yo-yos A LOT. Occasionally I'll get into a pattern of restricting and lose a good 10 pounds in two weeks. And then between that I'm just gorging myself on shitty food.

This shit has dominated my life for ten years and robbed me off my teen years lol
me i fear..sometimes i do nothing but eat all day :(