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Concorde

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Nov 19, 2025
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If someone in the US orders an antiemetic from India and it appears to have stopped in transit and the buyer wants that shit—any SN-friendly antiemetic—what should the buyer do?

How does an American get an antiemetic without a doctor? Feel free to reply or drop DMs.

Especially what are the resources that a buyer should use because Tor dot taxi's links didn't appear to include any of the many different drugs and names of each?

Side note, I feel like I can't tell anyone anything until I have everything I need to just walk away. I suppose this is the fun part because I'm neither here nor there and I know I can't leave today but I know I will soon have the power to leave peacefully, without the use of railways.

By the way, life often sucks and then gets worse, of course. But can you fucking believe that even suicide to end that fucked life is a god damned hassle?!
 
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dccoolkid22

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Dec 19, 2025
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Why are your ordering from overseas? Simply find one of many websites where you can list your symptoms and the doc will just send your script to your local US pharmacy. In many cases you don't even need to actually see or talk to a provider.
 
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Nov 19, 2025
106
I also tried one of those (in addition to a third place that may be US-based but is probably South Asia).

The US-based folks:
  1. Wouldn't give me what I wanted but gave me something similar but which will not work for my purposes
  2. I protested and said no I actually want the Rx I asked for by name
  3. They said it would interact with my medications
  4. I protested and said no and that all I'm taking is a multivitamin
So tomorrow, a weekday, I have to phone them again.

The first of the three looks like it's cleared international checks and should arrive, signature required now ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ early this coming week.
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Don't come for me, hun 💅
 
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android

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Nov 9, 2025
88
Might be related to December peak postal demand because of all the holiday shopping etc
 
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wordsoutb4sumnelsin

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Dec 7, 2025
76
Honestly, this is why I tried on that route for a bit, then gave up. Too afraid to be "caught". Rather be sure to have a for sure available method. Hell, not a rather, it's what I needed. Tho now that I have at least SOME (for now) for sure way out, tough to not want to consider other, maybe more peaceful methods...
 
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Nov 19, 2025
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Honestly, this is why I tried on that route for a bit, then gave up. Too afraid to be "caught". Rather be sure to have a for sure available method. Hell, not a rather, it's what I needed. Tho now that I have at least SOME (for now) for sure way out, tough to not want to consider other, maybe more peaceful methods...
Back in the olden days I shipped something illegal to my parents' house while I was staying there. And during other olden days, the feds came after my boyf for distribution. They'd taped our calls for months. Since then—and especially with these deliveries—it's like "what do I have to fear? the worst has already happened, plus finding a dignified and meaningful life is a fantasy when I can barely afford to exist." And in no seriousness, I've seen HBO's Oz: I'm positive I would thrive, locked up, in a sea of men.
 
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wordsoutb4sumnelsin

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Dec 7, 2025
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Back in the olden days I shipped something illegal to my parents' house while I was staying there. And during other olden days, the feds came after my boyf for distribution. They'd taped our calls for months. Since then—and especially with these deliveries—it's like "what do I have to fear? the worst has already happened, plus finding a dignified and meaningful life is a fantasy when I can barely afford to exist." And in no seriousness, I've seen HBO's Oz: I'm positive I would thrive, locked up, in a sea of men.
Damn, Oz used to be on my to watch list before not being able to watch "new to me" shit... Now, for me tho, hard to consume much other than news and similar wider real life shit on YT. HAVE managed to a re-watch of a bit of Deadwood here and there recently though. The REAL stuff about life/death in so much of OG HBO stuff is about all that can HIT for me now...

Ah, and re-reading: Lol, props! Any sexual desire left is more than some of us! Still can occasionally feel it, and need to "do the bodily function/biological need", lol tbh, as I'd already rationalized stuff long ago. Just feels like dumb/annoying animal/living being shit now to me. More reasons on the pile...

And fuck it, dunno why I was scared to say. Since I just posted in another thread; For me it's being fortunate and glad to have had a firearm since entering adulthood (lol tho I WAS also emancipated at 16, so in a buncha other ways already "adult" by then). And yeah, I just don't want there to be ANY way to lose access to my ability to hopefully choose a quick end... So dumb it could just depend on aim, functioning of metal and powder, etc...
 
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Concorde

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Nov 19, 2025
106
not being able to watch "new to me" shit
It's not just me? I'm not the only one who stopped liking new stuff long ago? My music library especially is all about me being 17ish and maybe one song from each of the last 5 years.

Any sexual desire left is more than some of us
I'm not even sure that's what it is. Maybe. My sexual desire at the moment feels like: I want people in my gender of choice to take advantage of me. Especially if others of that gender can watch. Wtf is that.

emancipated at 16
No one is emancipated when life at home is going great. And 16 is shit enough already.

So I like to believe that I don't want a violent end, which would mean no trains, no guns, and I'm afraid of heights even on TV, so no jumping. But wouldn't it be nice if I could disappear to the woods with a gun and have nature hide my corpse until everyone I know is gone. God I hate this garbage. And I hate how it feels like the people on this website are the first to ever consider any of this.

Like with homosexuality, you might see old letters from 150 years ago where they lack the vocabulary and perspective to discuss stuff I take for granted in 2025... their fumbling for the right words and the right way for them to frame their thoughts and feelings about something society HAAAATES reminds me a lot of us. Fuck this nonsense.