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Exhausted546

Experienced
Dec 1, 2025
271
I envy you for that, you can just go to your local Walmart, buy a gun and end your life. I've been trying to find the right hanging method for a while now, PSH in closet didn't work. Settled on FSH using a door but I just learned it's unlikely to work despite seeing vids of such, now I'm back to PSH ,this time I'm thinking that kneeling may do the difference but I don't want to fuck up and be brain dead either.

A firearm would be so much simpler. Although I've seen several vids of people blowing their face off with a shotgun and surviving despite that, that's a much worse date than being brain-dead imo
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,891
Yes very very jealous
 
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RosebyAnyName

RosebyAnyName

Staring at the ceiling for 6 hours
Nov 9, 2023
409
Pretty sure you can only do that in Texas, other states still need you to have a licenses before you can legally own a firearm.

I am jealous. In Canada you need to do a 12 hour program / course (usually split between two days) + have a background check, and my depressed ass is too lazy to do all that.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,891
In my.country if we have psychiatric illness
( Doctors know) Impossible ton have a gun
 
sanctionedusage

sanctionedusage

sanctioned sausage
Sep 17, 2025
475
its really not that easy
 
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kitkat9234

Arcanist
Nov 27, 2024
471
It's near impossible in NY. Especially with mental health history.
 
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TooLate2582

Experienced
May 6, 2018
282
Don't believe the media hype, it's not that easy at all. I could get a hold of one easier and most under developed nations.
 
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ipmanwc0

ipmanwc0

Doctor Sleep
Sep 15, 2023
620
I think it's probably not that hard, not having owned one myself but seeing gun deaths by suicide or murder like every day in the news. But maybe my country shouldn't fuck me up so badly that I need one in the first place?
 
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DeathSweetDeath

Arcanist
Nov 12, 2025
495
Pretty sure you can only do that in Texas, other states still need you to have a licenses before you can legally own a firearm.

I am jealous. In Canada you need to do a 12 hour program / course (usually split between two days) + have a background check, and my depressed ass is too lazy to do all that.
There are plenty of other states that require no license or permit besides Texas, in fact, I moved to one for that reason.
It's near impossible in NY. Especially with mental health history.
The mental health history part still applies regardless of what state.
 
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eternalpace

Student
Oct 18, 2025
198
It's not always easy to purchase a firearm. In my previous state, there was a process to obtain one. I recently moved and was able to purchase a handgun because it's much easier in my new state. There's still Federal background checks but, thankfully, my inpatient stays have been voluntary (not involving a judge) so I still qualified to purchase a firearm.
 
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Goyasan

Goyasan

Ah'm tryin' my best!
Nov 24, 2019
53
I think it really depends on on where you live and your history.
(1) Has been convicted in any court of a crime punishable by imprisonment for a term exceeding 1 year;

(2) Is a fugitive from justice;

(3) Is an unlawful user of or addicted to any controlled substance;

(4) Has been adjudicated as a mental defective or has been committed to a mental institution;

(5) Is an alien illegally or unlawfully in the United States or an alien admitted to the United States under a nonimmigrant visa;

(6) Has been discharged from the Armed Forces under dishonorable conditions;

(7) Having been a citizen of the United States, has renounced his or her citizenship;

(8) Is subject to a court order that restrains the person from harassing, stalking, or threatening an intimate partner or child of such intimate partner issued after a hearing

at which notice was given to the person and at which the person had an opportunity to participate, and includes a finding that the person subject to the order represents a credible threat to the intimate partner or child or the intimate partner OR explicitly prohibits the use, attempted use, or threatened use of force against the partner; or

(9) Has been convicted of a misdemeanor crime of domestic violence cannot lawfully receive, possess, ship, or transport a firearm or ammunition,is prohibited from shipping, transporting, possessing, or receiving firearms and ammunition.

A person who is under indictment or information for a crime punishable by imprisonment for a term exceeding 1 year cannot lawfully ship, transport, or receive a firearm or ammunition. Such persons may continue to lawfully possess firearms and ammunition obtained prior to the indictment or information, but cannot do so once the conviction becomes final.
- https://www.atf.gov/firearms/qa/are...-receive-or-possess-firearms-andor-ammunition

Sure, theoretically as long as you aren't these things it should be easy. However, considering this site there's a lot of people who can't get access because they've been committed. If you're 4 you're kind of fucked unless there's a time frame where that doesn't matter anymore.
 
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maylurker

Experienced
Dec 28, 2025
275
even if i had a shotty i dont think i could overpower my si enough
 
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Liebestod

Liebestod

Suicide Enthusiast
Mar 15, 2025
508
I live in New Jersey (which has some of the strictest gun laws in America) and I own a gun and plan to buy more. Let me tell you it wasn't that easy and it really depends on the state that you live in. I had to get fingerprinted, take an online safety course, go through a background check for the state and local police, and have two references vouch for me to be able to get my firearms license. That's all before the background check that goes down at the time of purchase (if you buy a gun from an FFL and not a private sale as in some states private sales don't require background checks but in mine it does so it wouldn't matter anyway).
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
46,996
They truly are fortunate to me, all I envy are those who are no longer burdened with this dreadful, torturous and painful existence I just always saw as a mistake, for me non-existence is the solution, non-existence is just the only peace in this existence so harmful and deeply undesirable that just causes endless amounts of torture and suffering, the fact that I cannot access painless,guaranteed death is such a terrible crime, I always suffer so much from being trapped in this horrific world where I cannot just easily find peace from this existence that only ever caused me to suffer.
 
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OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,047
I can get a firearm easily and have this weird persistent preference for FSH.

I know this is irrational. A little partial hanging experimentation will probably change my mind.
 
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dayhell

dayhell

Member
Jul 6, 2025
52
I'm pretty sure that if i had access to a firearm, I wouldn't be here anymore. Unfortuantely I'm not American.
 
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proze

Member
Nov 19, 2025
5
My father CTB by firearm in the us so i always thought ctb by firearm have less SI since its faster and one shot (contrary to other method that leave time for SI like partial hang)
But i'm from europe and. no way to get a gun, if i liquid my saving and go abroad to get one i wanna be sure i will be able tu pull the trigger and not fail because of SI
 
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Unlucky777

Unlucky777

Specialist
Dec 10, 2025
342
It's not that easy to get a firearm as people make it seem. Especially if you have mental health issues. It's not easy
 
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knowledgeseeking

knowledgeseeking

Member
Apr 5, 2025
81
I live in Texas and have a loaded gun not 10 ft from me and although effective there are downsides. If you have people in your life that love you especially parents, that method adds trauma for them. The imagery is awful in person or in imagination. It's messy unless you go out somewhere which could make finding your remains challenging if you don't leave a note or anything, but if you leave the note that could get you found too soon. I don't feel it is a kind option to the people left behind, and hope I find a different method before it comes to that.
 
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mordumfan

mordumfan

lizzie //
Aug 12, 2025
40
if I was American my brains would be splattered on the wall by now. I agree they are very very lucky
 
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OzymandiAsh

OzymandiAsh

aNoMaLy
Nov 6, 2025
374
There are plenty of other states that require no license or permit besides Texas, in fact, I moved to one for that reason.

The mental health history part still applies regardless of what state.
How do they check mental health history at the counter?

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I mean, most Americans are unlucky in a thousand other ways. But yeah when it comes to CTB they are lucky.
I envy you for that, you can just go to your local Walmart, buy a gun and end your life. I've been trying to find the right hanging method for a while now, PSH in closet didn't work. Settled on FSH using a door but I just learned it's unlikely to work despite seeing vids of such, now I'm back to PSH ,this time I'm thinking that kneeling may do the difference but I don't want to fuck up and be brain dead either.

A firearm would be so much simpler. Although I've seen several vids of people blowing their face off with a shotgun and surviving despite that, that's a much worse date than being brain-dead imo
If anyone somehow survived a shotgun blast to the face, presumably they could just attempt again? Although this assumes continued access to the weapon, maybe the weapon/ammo would be taken away and access restricted
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
1,204
Yes, we are. Yet I've lacked the guts to buy something and get this over with.
I went in, held the gun I'm considering. Thought to myself, this is gun that will kill me, as the clerk was explaining things. I regret not starting the process already
 
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uniquejam

uniquejam

Member
Jul 16, 2025
21
How do they check mental health history at the counter?

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I mean, most Americans are unlucky in a thousand other ways. But yeah when it comes to CTB they are lucky.

If anyone somehow survived a shotgun blast to the face, presumably they could just attempt again? Although this assumes continued access to the weapon, maybe the weapon/ammo would be taken away and access restricted
background check, whether mental health history will be flagged probably depends on circumstances.
Also, there are definitely cases of people firing multiple shots after first didn't kill, during a single attempt, though the scenario you mention seems to be two separate attempts.
 
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DeathSweetDeath

Arcanist
Nov 12, 2025
495
How do they check mental health history at the counter?
Because as previously stated, it is revealed in the mandatory background check. Can't buy a gun legally unless you pass it. If you've had an involuntary psych hold, you cannot legally buy a gun ever (or ever again). If it was voluntary, then only five years.
 
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Manaaja

Manaaja

euROPE
Sep 10, 2018
1,669
There is also less domestic abuse in America than in Shitland, because of this.
 
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OzymandiAsh

aNoMaLy
Nov 6, 2025
374
Because as previously stated, it is revealed in the mandatory background check. Can't buy a gun legally unless you pass it. If you've had an involuntary psych hold, you cannot legally buy a gun ever (or ever again). If it was voluntary, then only five years.
Well that would suck... surely there is a sizeable black market in America (or nearby Mexico) for guns though?
 
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DeathSweetDeath

Arcanist
Nov 12, 2025
495
Well that would suck... surely there is a sizeable black market in America (or nearby Mexico) for guns though?
Idk, I'm sure there is for those who know the right people or know where to look.
 
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madameviolette

Another Big Pharma victim
Oct 9, 2025
504
My father CTB by firearm in the us so i always thought ctb by firearm have less SI since its faster and one shot (contrary to other method that leave time for SI like partial hang)
But i'm from europe and. no way to get a gun, if i liquid my saving and go abroad to get one i wanna be sure i will be able tu pull the trigger and not fail because of SI

Was your father a US resident ? How did he get a gun
 
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Misanthrope0000

Misanthrope
Sep 8, 2024
101
I envy you for that, you can just go to your local Walmart, buy a gun and end your life. I've been trying to find the right hanging method for a while now, PSH in closet didn't work. Settled on FSH using a door but I just learned it's unlikely to work despite seeing vids of such, now I'm back to PSH ,this time I'm thinking that kneeling may do the difference but I don't want to fuck up and be brain dead either.

A firearm would be so much simpler. Although I've seen several vids of people blowing their face off with a shotgun and surviving despite that, that's a much worse date than being brain-dead imo
I envy them so much, not only that they live in a developed first world country, but also have access to fireguns, meanwhile I'm stuck in a third world hellhole where escape is impossible, not only other countries are making immigration stricter but firearms are also banned, it's like I'm made to suffer in this hole and watch my life be wasted.
 
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