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Ambivalent about CTBing

Unlucky777

Unlucky777

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Dec 10, 2025
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Yeah so on one hand I don't want to be a part of this world but on the flip side the exact opposite is true.

This constant tug of war is draining emotionally and as a result I'm not able to get anything done. "should I stay or should I go" is the question I'm grappling with daily and it is interfering with my work and school to the point where I'm like staying isn't doing me any good so maybe leaving would be a good idea.

I hate my brain. Seriously wish I could shut it the fuck up for good.
 
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