Amateur Poetry

[justanotherloser]

Post anything you've written. Or give credit to the author please.

I'll start with a couple of my own.

Life
Wandering through the maze to get more lost.
Reaching out for help, to just be tossed...
Trying anything and everything and then told to try harder,
Be smarter.
Adding more sugar to just taste sour.
No more honey in the larder.
Watching others get ahead
By any means- done, kept or said.
And looked down on for not being better....
Religions that tell us we're no good.
Instead of leaders thugs and criminals runn wall street to the hood.
Money makes the world go round
Guess I'm just a broke ass clown.
Spending holidays alone.
Be thankful... for what?
The hate, rats, cold, fumes, mold?
This invention called the internet-
So much noise but nothing's said.
They tell us: love ourselves to be worthy of love...
Or else just hurt from your toes on up.
But don't we deserve unallianable rights?
To get them though, we must fight.
To fight for them, we're 'the problem'
Trying to crawl up from the bottom.
Women told to be size 2 with double Ds
And be silent down on your knees.
You speak up to learn your place.
Cuz you can hide the bruises, not your face.
Never challenge the status quo!
So do what they want and get called a hoe.
Resist at all and become a "bitch".
And none of it will scratch the itch.
Or wanting more,
Needing more...
Do what you must and be a whore.
That's what you'll be forevermore!
Or go to school, and pay "the man"
Who does what he wants, because he can.
Or go online and get some fans-
But only if you're young, cis, and petite.
Just to Lather, Rinse, Repeat.
Marching On and on with bloody feet...
To go...
Nowhere
You
I want to feel like I'm not alone right now...
Pretend that everything will be okay.
Pretend things didn't happen the way they did somehow.
Imagine you're close to me and not so far away.
That we have a chance,
Not stuck in this same messed up dance.
But it's just a web of lies.
Act like there's no more tears, just smiles.
Pretend it doesn't hurt.
That you didn't do or say what I heard...
I wish you'd give what you expect-
And not just keep fucking with my head
And my heart...
Cuz now... I'm dead.
You
I want to feel like I'm not alone right now...
Pretend that everything will be okay.
Pretend things didn't happen the way they did somehow.
Imagine you're close to me and not so far away.
That we have a chance,
Not stuck in this same messed up dance.
But it's just a web of lies.
Act like there's no more tears, just smiles.
Pretend it doesn't hurt.
That you didn't do or say what I heard...
I wish you'd give what you expect-
And not just keep fucking with my head
And my heart...
Cuz now... I'm dead.
Kindof spoken poetry... kindof just "when... I feel" statements. Maybe just dumping at this point. Who knows

When I am ignored, I feel like I am too much of a burden.
When I am ghosted, I feel like I'm not worth a simple goodbye.
When my sadness is met with anger, I feel like I'm wrong and shouldn't open up.
When I'm blatantly flaked on, I feel like I'm not respected.
When I reach out and get no return, I feel like people's niceness hasn't been genuine before, and I get confused.
When I'm stolen from, I feel vulnerable and taken for granted.
When I'm told how I'm feeling or how I need to try harder, I feel misunderstood or unaknowledged.
When I'm blamed for bad things, I feel out of control, like I've failed to protect myself, and then terrified.
When I'm shown a simple kindness, I question it and get defensive.
When I'm praised, I can feel really proud, or like I'm being mocked.
When I'm sick and get told to push through, I feel like I'm not strong enough.
When I'm mocked if scared, I feel unsafe and lash out in defensiveness.
When I get compliments, it's hard to believe they are truthful and genuine so I sometimes ignore.
When I am told I'm loved I don't trust it.
When I go through a loss, I grieve what happiness there was.
When I can't be 100% I feel less than deserving.
When there are double standards I feel like I'm thought of as lesser.
When I'm sad I feel like I should hide it.
When I hide how I feel I then wonder if I'm being dishonest.
When I'm dishonest I feel insecure.
When I can't help I feel like I've failed
When I can't fix things I feel like I'm not good enough.
When I love, I love deeply and strongly
When I'm hurt I feel pain deeply.
When I'm used and discarded, I feel angry and unseen for what I can actually contribute.
When I'm not heard I feel patronized and disrespected. Especially when I have experience and knowledge, or have been working on something a long time with much effort.
When I'm believed in I feel motivated.
When I give I feel happy that I spread joy.
When I educate I feel happy to empower someone.
When I'm lied to I feel like I'm seen as a child or I'm not worth the truth.
When I'm shamed for eating I feel like I don't deserve food and should hide it.
When I love and lose I feel defeated.
When I try hard and keep failing I feel hopeless.
When I ask for help and am given an excuse repeatedly I feel unworthy.
When I am not included I feel unwanted and that im embarassing for existing.
When my likes are made fun of I feel not allowed to be happy and that I'm stupid.
When I'm held I feel safe, or unsafe and uncomfortable to be vulnerable.
When I'm seen or validated I feel exposed.
When I'm silent it's because I feel that I won't be heard. Again.
Kindof spoken poetry... kindof just "when... I feel" statements. Maybe just dumping at this point. Who knows

When I am ignored, I feel like I am too much of a burden.
When I am ghosted, I feel like I'm not worth a simple goodbye.
When my sadness is met with anger, I feel like I'm wrong and shouldn't open up.
When I'm blatantly flaked on, I feel like I'm not respected.
When I reach out and get no return, I feel like people's niceness hasn't been genuine before, and I get confused.
When I'm stolen from, I feel vulnerable and taken for granted.
When I'm told how I'm feeling or how I need to try harder, I feel misunderstood or unaknowledged.
When I'm blamed for bad things, I feel out of control, like I've failed to protect myself, and then terrified.
When I'm shown a simple kindness, I question it and get defensive.
When I'm praised, I can feel really proud, or like I'm being mocked.
When I'm sick and get told to push through, I feel like I'm not strong enough.
When I'm mocked if scared, I feel unsafe and lash out in defensiveness.
When I get compliments, it's hard to believe they are truthful and genuine so I sometimes ignore.
When I am told I'm loved I don't trust it.
When I go through a loss, I grieve what happiness there was.
When I can't be 100% I feel less than deserving.
When there are double standards I feel like I'm thought of as lesser.
When I'm sad I feel like I should hide it.
When I hide how I feel I then wonder if I'm being dishonest.
When I'm dishonest I feel insecure.
When I can't help I feel like I've failed
When I can't fix things I feel like I'm not good enough.
When I love, I love deeply and strongly
When I'm hurt I feel pain deeply.
When I'm used and discarded, I feel angry and unseen for what I can actually contribute.
When I'm not heard I feel patronized and disrespected. Especially when I have experience and knowledge, or have been working on something a long time with much effort.
When I'm believed in I feel motivated.
When I give I feel happy that I spread joy.
When I educate I feel happy to empower someone.
When I'm lied to I feel like I'm seen as a child or I'm not worth the truth.
When I'm shamed for eating I feel like I don't deserve food and should hide it.
When I love and lose I feel defeated.
When I try hard and keep failing I feel hopeless.
When I ask for help and am given an excuse repeatedly I feel unworthy.
When I am not included I feel unwanted and that im embarassing for existing.
When my likes are made fun of I feel not allowed to be happy and that I'm stupid.
When I'm held I feel safe, or unsafe and uncomfortable to be vulnerable.
When I'm seen or validated I feel exposed.
When I'm silent it's because I feel that I won't be heard. Again.

 

[U. A.]

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