Venting Am I suicidal

[reki_haibane]

Sometimes I just want to grab my father's shotgun and put it under my chin and pull the trigger... I don't want to die or have a real well thought about it.. It's not like I ever planed on suicide ... It's just the mere thought that I don't know why always in my head

 

[joey2424]

Maybe this is just like an intrusive thought? There are lots of kinds of intrusive thoughts people get that don't mean they want to do the thing, which can be very distressing.

 

[looking4partner]

I read that people who are not suicidal & absolutely do not want to attempt can have obsessive thoughts about it caused by OCD. It could be a type of OCD.

I think some people also have both (suicidal theme as an OCD topic and ideation.)

 

[JadedBeing]

You are definitely suicidal. If you're not sure about doing it, there's hope for you and i would advise you to seek help.