I've been having OCD and insomnia for about 3 years now (I am 23). My OCD themes are pretty messed up (of a sexual nature). Even though a psychiatrist diagnosed me with it, sometimes I wonder if it's really OCD or if I'm just a monster. On top of this, I have pretty bad sleep problems. I used to sleep 3 hours per night on average. Right now, I am on Quviviq. It does help, but my sleep isn't as deep (hard to explain) as it was before these problems started, and I still wake up a couple of times each night. The OCD really impacts my personal relationships, makes me angry/sad, and makes me question myself all the time. The sleep problems make it hard to focus during the day and at school and even at work. I've been really considering taking my life recently; I even have SN in my closet right now. Do you think I'm a coward for wanting to take my life? Are my problems not legitimate for wanting to kill myself? Am I just running away from problems that I should face?
bl33ding_heart
Borderline
- Jun 24, 2025
- 173
You're just a suffering human that wants their pain to end. That's only natural and doesn't make you a coward whatsoever. 
