honestly, it feels like nobody would hear me, even if i screamed for help every single day. sometimes i wonder if anyone truly cares or if they're just pretending because it's what they're supposed to do. people always say they're there for you, but when it comes down to it, they're caught up in their own problems or they just don't want to deal with someone else's pain. but i get it, people have their own lives, their own issues, and maybe they're struggling too. but that doesn't make it any easier when you're drowning and no one sees you reaching out for help. when i do muster up the courage to talk about it, it feels like I'm a burden, like i'm dragging everyone else down with my problems. so i just stop trying. i keep everything bottled up because it's easier than facing the disappointment when nobody responds. even if they respond and try to help you, it's the same generic thing like those shitty suicide help hotlines or they'll end up locking you up in a psych ward which also doesn't get things any better.