Ackkk fuck this man (Quarantine depression)

[Busridin'26]

Honestly, I didn't feel particularly more suicidal than before or anything so I didn't see a point in posting here but.

After going off on my Tumblr and feeling the same ima just repeat myself here.

THERE IS NOTHING TO DO. NOTHING TO DO ABOUT IT. I AM BROKE AND SICK OF IT.

I WAS GOING TO MAKE CHANGES AND NOW I CANT FUCKING DO ANYTHING.


FUCK THE WALKS AND SHIT. I AM NOT RECOVERY ORIENTATED. I DONT FUCKING CARE ABOUT FEELING ANY TYPE OF BETTER. ID RATHER BE FADED. I AM TOO FUCKING BROKE FOR THAT THOUGH.

I had to live a little too fucking die and neither is an option right now I'm so fucking pissed off and depressed I CANT EVEN.



Like 1 thing in regards to finances is.. I have 1 last chance and place to borrow from after THAT'S IT. So I dunno when to use that tbh. I'm sick of all of this already HOLY FUCK.

HOPEFULLY. something turns out from this job search I'm currently on but.. With everything, NOTHING IS LOOKING UP.

(Sorry about my shit spelling/grammar and the caps in JUST SO FUCKING FED UP.)

I DONT EVEN WANNA LIVE SO WHHHHYYYY DO I CONSTANTLY HAVE TO GO THROUGH IT HOLY FUCKKKKKKK

Honestly, I didn't feel particularly more suicidal than before or anything so I didn't see a point in posting here but.

After going off on my Tumblr and feeling the same ima just repeat myself here.

THERE IS NOTHING TO DO. NOTHING TO DO ABOUT IT. I AM BROKE AND SICK OF IT.

I WAS GOING TO MAKE CHANGES AND NOW I CANT FUCKING DO ANYTHING.


FUCK THE WALKS AND SHIT. I AM NOT RECOVERY ORIENTATED. I DONT FUCKING CARE ABOUT FEELING ANY TYPE OF BETTER. ID RATHER BE FADED. I AM TOO FUCKING BROKE FOR THAT THOUGH.

I had to live a little too fucking die and neither is an option right now I'm so fucking pissed off and depressed I CANT EVEN.



Like 1 thing in regards to finances is.. I have 1 last chance and place to borrow from after THAT'S IT. So I dunno when to use that tbh. I'm sick of all of this already HOLY FUCK.

HOPEFULLY. something turns out from this job search I'm currently on but.. With everything, NOTHING IS LOOKING UP.

(Sorry about my shit spelling/grammar and the caps in JUST SO FUCKING FED UP.)

I DONT EVEN WANNA LIVE SO WHHHHYYYY DO I CONSTANTLY HAVE TO GO THROUGH IT HOLY FUCKKKKKKK

Honestly too if anyone does/knows finances, or some shit and feels bored enough to wanna help out someone !!!! Im here bc I DUNNO WHAT TO DO OR WHO TO TALK TO. Got any reasources (around shit like that) in open rn.

 

[Dinosaur]

I hope you peace and happiness

 

[faust]

Same for me. Quarantine, looking for job, no invitations, no money.
The situation will change in a week but the cycle is repeated every month.
I borrowed 20 eu from the last source and bought some food because I had no food at all and food banks are in the city center, I do not even live in the city.
Don't know the whole situation, but you can try to apply for any possible social welfare.
Getting funding for business is a long work, yet you may be refused a few times before you get funding.
Crowdfunding may be an option too but it is hours of work again.
Try to look for 1-2-3 day unqualified jobs if there are any nearby. Like loading a van or helping in a garden.
Corona is so annoying...

 

[ZardozOmega]

Gotta learn to live like us NEETs.

 

[Busridin'26]

Gotta learn to live like us NEETs.

Lmaoo i was tryna give up my NEET life time to get back into it (back into anime and playing games i mean)

Same for me. Quarantine, looking for job, no invitations, no money.
The situation will change in a week but the cycle is repeated every month.
I borrowed 20 eu from the last source and bought some food because I had no food at all and food banks are in the city center, I do not even live in the city.
Don't know the whole situation, but you can try to apply for any possible social welfare.
Getting funding for business is a long work, yet you may be refused a few times before you get funding.
Crowdfunding may be an option too but it is hours of work again.
Try to look for 1-2-3 day unqualified jobs if there are any nearby. Like loading a van or helping in a garden.
Corona is so annoying...

Thnx for the suggestions im.applying on indeed and there are positions and I actually got an email back ^.^

Benefit of this is online interviews!!!

Good luck with this rona struggle ❤

 

[Final Escape]

I'm in a tiny town now because I left the city. The isolation is brutal. I don't think I'll survive this long the not being with people. I relate to everyone and really sympathize how bad this is. I have a friend but still he's gone a lot. So I'm here in the house alone and I wish I had a pet at least fuck. I might trap a squirrel lol! I see them outside haha! Baby squirrel would be fun. Jus kiddin! I need a pet bad though. If I didn't leave the city I would have likely starved to death or just ended up homeless and desperate. I'm still likely goin to die maybe from eventual suicide or starvation lack of medical thyroid meds.