Venting A week after my attempt

[Claymore7274]

It's been a week and a half since my partial attempt, and well, things got worse.

To sum it up; the anchor point i used turned out to not be secure enough and i faceplanted the floor, i got a concussion and a nose fracture in exchange to being alive. a week after that, im here still in a lot of pain, i have stopped taking NSAIDs because my stomach has been hurting like crazy, i feel like absolute shit, everything hurts

My brother is staying at my home this wednesday until the year ends, and it's him the sole reason i want to die. PLUS i wont be alone to try again anymore, i was this close to dying.

I don't really care if my nose is slightly crooked now, what it really concerns me is how much brain damage i gave to myself. Not like it matters anyways

 

[Fabi_2312]

Wait until the year ends, in that time try not to stress yourself about anything.
I don't know what your brother did to you, but maybe these last days could change your mind.
If not then do what you think is right.
No matter which way you choose, I hope you find your freedom. <3