Venting a cry for help

[dreadingthesharpnel]

I can't keep living

whatever I do to try and get people out of their apathetic life meanwhile others are dying is met by mockery and ridicule. I'm so sick of this. I don't want to be apathetic, I don't want to live in hell. maybe I'm too naive and stupid for my country, for this world. I feel like there's no hope if everyone just keeps sitting and doing nothing, and there's no way to make anyone keep moving - so what's the point in moving myself? what's the point with the false hope? I have my own share of personal problems - grief, mental disorders and lack of anyone who would actually, deeply love me.
I'm on the edge (metaphorically, for now) and I cannot seem to find anything that will make me lust for life. please say something, ANYTHING that will make my life worth living. please.

 

[tormentedhusk]

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did I post this in the wrong thread or are you giving me resources? I don't understand.
maybe I should CTB at this point