A black hole

[hang in there]

Man I thought I was doing so much better lately but coming back here after so many years I can feel myself getting pulled down deeper into the fucking abyss
Each morning it gets darker and darker
It feels like all my reasons I had to say alive were flimsy excuses
I hate that I love it
I think I am only ever really comfortable after accepting I'm going to throw my life away like the filthy fucking trash I am

 

[DivineSpark]

a black hole, you cannot fill it with hedonism...no drugs, food, any addictions can fill it.

 

[Namelesa]

Yea I feel that too. A gnawing void inside me making everything feel more empty and depressing. I am sorry life isn't fulfilling enough for you too. You are not trash at all for being like this. Life is so difficult after all and be really miserable for some.