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beluganotwhale

beluganotwhale

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Oct 30, 2025
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Down with cancer, I need help

I'm a 19 year old fighting cancer for the 2nd time. I was first diagnosed at 13 and was in remission for 4 years after 2 years of chemos. But this year i've sadly relapsed. For the last 8 months i've been fighting for my life iin hospitals and as you can imagine, the bills are huge. My father somehow paid for 4 chemos which came out to be around 10L. The total cost of the treatment has exceeded 15L even via government means.

My last chemo was entirely paid by the amount that was crowdfunded. Thanks to that, i'm alive now. I just got a news that a fellow patient with whom i became friend with, passed away a few days ago as he delayed chemos, i'm scared, and im crying because the same might happen to me.

My father is the only earning member of my family, has became insanely abusive towards my mother and has completely stopped sending us any financial aid for the treatment. He spent almost 5L given by his friend for my treatment into his own business.

I just got discharged yesterday and my dad did not even bother to call once. All the medicines and tests were p

I dont know where i would've been today if i skipped the last chemo due to lack of funds, but thanks to you all, I lived. Please, donate as little as you can so that the treatment atleast doesnt stop. I lost 2 friends in these 6 months of hospital stays, i'm scared, and on top of that the family drama. It's too much to take.

It's getting hard every single day I just want to end this all and commit suicide. It's not getting any better because I have zero funds to get treatment and my mom's trying every single way to see me alive but How can I tell her that I don't have any will to live being through this all over for the second time.

Help me with your best advice.
Should I send my life and be in peace or raise funds and be alive ?
 
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Vlad Tepes

Vlad Tepes

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Jun 24, 2025
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Heartbreaking. Nobody should have to go through this. That being said, giving any kind of encouragement on this site is against the rules.
 
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beluganotwhale

beluganotwhale

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Oct 30, 2025
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Heartbreaking. Nobody should have to go through this. That being said, giving any kind of encouragement on this site is against the rules.
You can speak your mind no rules on that right ?
 
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JealousOfTheElderly

In death, life echoes. In life, death calls.
Aug 28, 2020
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I would give anything to trade places with you. I am sorry you are going through this. I would be willing to go through this for you if I could. I just want to die and cancer is the way.
 
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