18-20 here, do you ever worry about not getting old?

[leaftomb]

For the people around 18-20 here, do you also feel weird looking at older people around you? Maybe it's just me, but I often catch myself looking at people that are a bit older than me and just think "Damn, I'll never see that age". It doesn't even mean much to me, if anything it's good, but I also wonder if you guys think the same thing. This often happens when I see parents with their kids, but it's also more random sometimes. I accepted it, but it's still a weird thought.

 

[drag201]

I'm 19 turning 20 this year and sometimes I wonder what life I could have if I didnt have to deal with mental illness all my life. But i would never want to continue to constantly live in agony for so long and I'm completely at peace with that idea as well. It's a bitter thought but nothing that really worries me either, just a bit of a "what if?" question, you know?

 

[leaftomb]

I'm 19 turning 20 this year and sometimes I wonder what life I could have if I didnt have to deal with mental illness all my life. But i would never want to continue to constantly live in agony for so long and I'm completely at peace with that idea as well. It's a bitter thought but nothing that really worries me either, just a bit of a "what if?" question, you know?

i can totally relate to that. it's awful to know i won't get my past back and it'll all just be what ifs. i wish i could get better to see life as worthy as they do, at least enough to keep going for a while

I'm 20, and if anything, I fear the possibility of going through the process of watching myself get older and older. I want to prevent that before it ever has the possibility of happening, before I become even more undesirable than I already am now.

getting older is definitely scary. but i guess people embrace it eventually, right? i wouldn't wanna see myself old, it feels quite miserable to think about, but sometimes i'll see happy older people and i still get sad knowing it won't be me. aging (or not) is a weird thing to think about